Forevermore- Paul Bennett

Please hear me out my friend
Ive something to say that from within
Its a last memory
Trying think back i'll have you see
All of those night we shared
All of those days you were there

I just wanna love you forevermore
And i wanna hold you just like before
And because someday, we might just find a way
And we can love forevermore

If i could turn the time
I would have never let you go
And you would still be mine
But you got on crying on the road
All of the love weve shared
All of the time you were there...

I just wanna love you forevermore
And i wanna hold you just like before
And maybe someday, we might just find a way
And we can love forevermore

Oh im lost without you
Oh tell me what should i do
Now thats your gone
I cant go on the road
Im a lonely man
I need you again

I just wanna love you forevermore
And i wanna hold you just like before (ooh)
And maybe someday, we might just find a way
And we can love forevermore
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I have this silly, nasty, little habit of just walking away when my buttons are pushed. When I get pissed off, well Im really pissed off. After walking away, I walk away too from all the memories, and the only ones I take with me are the pain and the lessons. Then as if by magic, I forget, I forget as if it never happened. Sometimes things cross my mind, but they're far too distant to wallow over.

We can only walk so far. And sometimes, your own two feet, will unconsciously bring you to the door you left open and only you, can close it.

In the most coincidental fashion, I ran into someone I used to know yesterday. And there's always a first time for everything. I didn't know what to do, what to say, I didn't know so it seemed pretty awkward. It was funny. I mean, do we have to do this now? Its 2 years overdue. A little too late.

He needed to hear the answers to his pending questions. Because these answers could help him salvage his current relationship. He needed to know what went wrong, why and when for the sole reason that he wouldn't have to commit the same mistake, again. I gave him the answers. And though he didn't seem to fully believe, I knew I have served my part in this coincidence. And as far as both of us were concerned, I am done.

Above was once our song. I never listened to it for the past 2 years until today. And there was not one event I remembered hearing it over the radio, or some neighbor's loud speakers. Staying far away from bitter memories help me get over things. Not until I get in touch with them again, would I get the validation that I actually am, over things. But then I cried. I told God I'm sorry for causing so much hurt and perhaps trauma to someone who used to be a part of my life. I told Him I'm sorry, but I aint going anywhere but forward. And I said thank you, I don't even know if I deserve this happiness, but thank you.

"You wouldn't appreciate a good thing till its gone", was what he said. That's the irony of life that I never fully understood because I see to it that I value, every minute detail of everything and everyone. Never been a fan of regrets.

We finally said our goodbyes. Two years, too late. We took care of business this time. Clear, accomplished, closed. First time for everything. It actually felt good to have closed something, not for yourself, but for someone else.

Feb. 14, 2008, Valentines Day, today, I was awakened by the screaming of the next door's helper. A delivery came. 3 dozen red roses, chocolates, a teddy bear and a pillow saying, "Be my Forever". A typical valentines day gift. What aint typical was, those came straight from "there". How did they get here? I dont know. But most certainly, I have never felt more beautiful in my life till today.

Then I told Him, that right here, right now, is the life I wanted, I still want and will be wanting till Im old and dying.

Above song, was no longer mine.

As I marvelled at the gifts in front of me, I grabbed my ipod, tore open one Ferrero, clicked on MY song, and closed my teary eyes...

COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE- Edwin McCain

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more