Okay, so if u've read beinging to an end!!!

i'm now in the fully functioning stages of haveing casual sex with him!!!Trevor!!!

out of all the people in the whole world i not only get stuck on someone who is only living down here because he's escapeing and has no fixed plans, he also has come here because of a bad break-up with someone would love to divoluge the details but not even i am aware of them!!!!

And the only thing that scares me is that my head and logic complete tell me that i should not be doing this and that  i will somehow end up worse off for havong this kind of relationship with him, and then the other part of me completely tells me this is the best thing to do, at least then you have someone to cuddle up to at night when your lonely, sex and thats about it actually well we do talk but not much most of our time is spent in the bed and pillow talk cant really ever be taken seariously one your nackered and two sometimes its just sweet talk to get a hand job or blow job, or he wants to go agen but has to wait to build his,,,,stamina up!!!!!

so yes going off course a bit sorry.

so the other part says just do it until you get and frustrated and want something more and until you meet someone else, but i worry if i have this type of relationship to fall back on is it going to make me lazy in looking for a proper committed full time relationship dear god that does actually scare me writeing it like that!!!!

help any advice would be greatly approciated.