• destinydiva said on Mar 18, 2008....

  you do exist !!!!and you will take control!!!!!! i told you before..i have complete faith in you :-) and ya know..the journey of finding yourself...tho it sounds scary..its a fun ride :-) ((((((((((hugs))))))))  des xxx

• killingme4u said on Mar 18, 2008....

  hey........hear ya.i get your pain.i hope you can get control.give yourself a chance.i think your worth it  and seem's many other's here do to.try (i know.) be a little cool to yourself.i do read your blog i don't leave many comment's anywhere though-i freeze up n think i'll come out stupid.but you express yourself good n i always get alot of what your saying.see ya around.take care.   :))

• Mamie said on Mar 18, 2008....

  hiya H...ok. take a deep breath....stop shaking. You are pretty clear about where you are and where you are headed....so please take your beloved little daughter somewhere so that she does not have to watch you fall. Let her stay with her dad and let her get used to the idea.
  Please. Save her that at least. Respect her enough to do that for her please. You will be glad that you did. That way, if you decide to get help she is safe and will not be more scarred. If you decide not to get help then at least she is safe and ....she will be safe.
  mamie

• nytquill17 said on Mar 18, 2008....

  I've noticed that your last two posts have shown a lot more clarity of thought.  It's like you are able to see things more clearly, to get your thoughts out and verbalized a lot better.  I know it won't always be this way, but I think just the fact that you can have a few days of this kind of honesty and reflection is a VERY important good sign.
  
  And believe it or not, fear can be a good sign too.  Fear lets you know you're alive.  It's like when your leg goes dead and then you get circulation again and start to get pins and needles.  It hurts to high heaven but only because your leg is still alive and healthy and trying to take care of itself - it would be a much worse sign if it didn't hurt at all.  Fear lets you know you DO exist, that there is a part of your spirit that is alive and fighting and does not want to die - or else it would not be scared to die, see what I mean?  If you didn't care that you've lost control, that you've lost yourself, it wouldn't scare you at all.
  
  The fear is good.  Not pleasant, not fun - terrible, even - but good.  It's a beginning, a foundation.  It's the one part of all of this that's truly your own voice :)
  

• GrapeKoolaid said on Mar 19, 2008....

  I wish you strength in these difficult times, a light in your dark moments...  I have no salve to make it better.  No potion.  I do have room in my heart, a sympathetic ear, though.  Come sit with me any time you'd like...  

• Me-Myself&I said on Mar 19, 2008....

  if you can't eat....please drink! anything and everything! 

  Please "refuse" to lose. Please.

  (hug)

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