starting .. now.

well so i had a really good time at school today met a girl that i had met before but she talked to me today becuase we were watching a movie in that class and she wasnt there yesterday and i got her phone number and it was alot of fun because we got to talk becuse that class is such a blow off class...

i figured out that i forgot my chem homework thank goddess it wasnt collected. that was amazing./

i had math homework that i thoguht i didnt knwo how to do but wehn i came to the class today we ewere having a quiz adn i didnt have to turn it in till tomorrow. i was amazed. and i was like /// who bleessed me today?? i really dont have to think hard about that one,.

shit my arm is starting to hur.t

wow.

uh well i am tyring to type constantly for fifteen minuets becuase it is a concept that was given to me by my english teacher last year becuase it forces you to tlak about things that oyu woulldnt think that you would talk about and it also helps with the typign aspect of it./

so here i am typign. hoping that i have a ride to sphyere this weekend, i think i made iceis mad, she isnt answering my texts i think she or i texted last night but i was kindof still feeling the irish car bomb and i was like hella tired anyway,

so i think maybe that was real and  not me dreamign about texting her, that does happen sometimes, goddess knows why/

i do that with a lot of things, i will think that i did it and then i will wake up and it is fifty fifty wieither or not i autaully did it or i was just dreamign that i did it, i dont think that it is healthy.

but whatever.

For some reason i am mad at my mom for not giving me a car yet, my sister had one when she was sixteen and i dont get one until after i turn seventeen what kindof crap is that???

anyways, i have been doing better than the older blogs that have once again re-appeared on the web, i think it is soemthing that helps people on sc. understand what i have been though and what i am mostly not dealing with anymore,. i am doing better, i want to join derby, i offically quit and i am starting colorguard in april. i think that it will do me good to not be sitting on my but that enitre rest of my life jsut sitting there on the internet doign noting. its highly annoying how short life is, i just want to be blutn adn honest like another one of my friends and tell people exactly what i think of them good and bad.

i think that people dont tell the truth enough

i think that when someone wants to tell someone elese something soo badly that they think it to be a bad idea so they do it in an honesty box or not at all is something that bothers me i wish that people coudl and would be more hoenst with me than they are.

it is something that is troublign to me becasue i am thinking that i were able to tell the 4 or 5 people that i have in my mind right now exactly what i am thinknig with no fear or regreats then i would, i know there alot of typos in this there are suppsoed to be. im sorry i am tryign to get all of my thoughts in here.

 

well i think that i want to tell thsese people becuase i want the few i like to know that i like them and i dont care about other things i just want it to be a known fact that i like them/ hey i liek you guys. okay? is that better...no becuase they arent reading this i am writting it and about eight people will  read this.

whatever.

I want to also tell the person that has been bothering me on facebook that i am gay, i dont care that you broke up with your girlfirned for me you are 21 and that is not okay, for the foremost reason that you have a fuckkiing penis.... SERISOUSLY that is not okay on any level. stay away from me you duche.

I think that the asshole that has been bother ing saturn needs to seriosly back the fuck off and get a life she has done nothing wrong to you but need to back off and get a life because you posting annononmosly on her blg is not okay back off okay? i dont want to see you here ev./.