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I have had a terrible couple of weeks.  My mood has been terrible, but my ability to cope has been worse.  And, typically, I found myself taking it out on everyone close to me.
 
I really don't want to go back on anti-depressants.  They wipe me out.  Oh, its nice to NOT have to deal with the lows, but I kinda miss out on the highs as well.  I'm just flat.  And I don't like being flat.  And don't get me started on the affects on my sex life.  My poor husband deals with my low sex drive often enough as it is...if I go back on meds it will just get worse for him.  I will ZERO sex drive, right now its just low...
 
Its bothersome because this weekend had me questioning my ability to be a capable adult, and the role model I am for my kids.  I felt just miserable, which of course only continued to vicious circle that depression is!  I am really wondering more and more if I have more of a BiPolar problem than regular depression.  I go through such wonderful times, they really do feel like Highs, when I can accomplish just about anything...and then I hit the lows, like these past few weeks.  I can't function at work...well, I make it through the day, but cry on the way there and cry on the way home.  Focusing is tough...
 
Yea, I know, I need to go back to the Dr, and get back on meds, or maybe go back to therapy and find a new way to deal with it...It hasn't been this bad since I graduated High School.....


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  • andora said on Mar 18, 2008....
    hi moretomethanthat,

    "to be well adjusted to a sick society is not a sign of good health"

    I wrote a book about the "human condition" for people like us. I have never been able to ignore the truth of this dysfunctional society. I do not wish to belabor the problems with society, however, I wish to express my congratulations for your level of honesty and self awareness - you are exceptional. I tried to keep it simple, however, the subject matter that I address is vast.

    Please go to pangasm.org for an in-depth explanation of so-called 'bi-polar' disorder. Its about simple electromagnetic patterns that take the 'wrong' or 'bad' out of this conversation. As well, I posted recently: "boomerang of denied negativity" here on soulcast.

    when my youngest daughter was 14 she called from a friends house where she was spending the night. She was so depressed that she was prompted to call me and tell me. My response: being depressed is a healthy response to what is going on around you (at the time 911 had just happened). I gave her permission to be depressed until she wasn't depressed any longer. Rather than resist her truth she accepted it and felt its depth until she didn't feel that way any longer. Unfortunately for most adults, we have denied our negative feelings in the name of positivity until we have huge backlogs of denied negativity that has a wicked backlash. I appreciate your honesty and negativity.
  • andora said on Mar 18, 2008....
    oh, I forgot to give one more tidbit of info: green food. My daughter and I use powdered barley,wheatgrass etc... for extreme mood swings (go to a real healthfood store that has a choice of greenfood products and choose the one you are most attracted to - much cheaper than meds - and you can put your family on these with great results. Along with denied emotions having a backlash, quite often we are deficient in alkaline foods. Stress creates an acidic hormone called cortisol, we need to compensate for this acidity with greenfoods. you mentioned crying: you are one of the smart ones darling:) 
  • andora said on Mar 18, 2008....
    oh, I forgot to give one more tidbit of info: green food. My children and I use powdered barley,wheatgrass etc... to help moderate extreme mood swings (go to a real healthfood store that has a choice of greenfood products and choose the one you are most attracted to) - much cheaper than meds - and you can put your family on these with great results. Along with denied emotions having a backlash, quite often we are deficient in alkaline foods. Stress creates an acidic hormone called cortisol, we need to compensate for this acidity with greenfoods. you mentioned crying: you are one of the smart ones darling:) 
  • more2methanthat said on Mar 19, 2008....
    Wow, that is some great insight. I have been fighting to NOT go back on meds. I just have been trying to take better care of myself, and adding more chemicals adnd medication into my system. Thanks!

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