I got out this morning for a walk.  It is -20 degree Celsius, so the air is crisp and cold.  The sky is deep blue in the early morning and the sun shines like it wants to bring in the spring season that will come very soon.  The quantity of snow we got this winter is incredible, so much, so white.

I went to the St-Laurence River, so large where I live and see nothing but a thick fog, so I decide to walk on the ice.  I know there's no danger because the ice is really thick there, the snow crisps under my boots as I go further.

I stop and look 360 degrees around me.  The snow is white, the horizon is white like milk, the sky is foggy white with a little bit of blue and I see a blinding spot in front of me, the sun that cannot go through the fog yet.  The only thing I see is the traces of my boots.

I close my eyes and think about me and my existence, the life itself.  I can hear the sounds of distant birds, a distant train, some distant cars, the sounds of a distant civilization.

I think life is a trace we make in a white canvas and I am in the middle of it.  It is up to me to decide where I will walk, what I will do.  White is all the colors of the world in the same time, you can do anything you want with it.  Sometimes you need to look back at what you did and see if you like it or not, then you go forward.

Where I stand in the whiteness of the snow, the fog and the sky, I see a light that calls me.  I am alone yes.  Am I lonely? no I'm not, because even if I don't see it now, there are numerous other traces with me, people I love, people I know, that helped me become what I am today good or bad.  And I do the same for them all.

Because of various events in my life recently, I need to learn more about humility.  Being there, alone, so small in the nothingness, life teaches me a lesson I gladly take.

It is with a new energy that I walk back my steps, but only to go further.  I just turned 40 and I think I’m about to start what will be best moments of my existence.  How can you tell to someone surrounded by darkness that life is great?  That life is so precious?  Just say it.  Just believe it.