I am not going to commit suicide right now. I can't believe I post my thoughts and someone sent an email to the SC police.
If you're trying to "help" ~ That had the opposite effect.
I am in therapy, I see a therapist on a regular basis.
I "thought" I could write here, "Safely", but obviously I was wrong.
I see the writing on the perverbial wall....
what the hell?
I think like 1 person was previously reading what I wrote.
And tonight I want to die. No one would notice. No one would care.
I've tried. I've tried to stop. And there is this tremendous internal battle within me, 1 part fighting to die, 1 part fighting to live. I have no idea who to bet on.
With all due respect, INH, when you post words like those I quoted above, what would you have us do? You've been here at Soulcast long enough to know that someone posts a blog containing this much pain, there is almost always someone who responds. You most certainly have a right to privacy, and as far as blogsites go, SoulCast is a fairly safe place to write out very private things. But if you make it public, people will comment. I might suggest that if you don't want people to read or comment on what you write, that you keep your blog in draft mode.
LucyT may have overreacted, but there is not a doubt in my mind that she did it out of a great sense of compassion and empathy.
I just read some of your other posts. I'm so sorry that you are in such pain. I wish you the best.
