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It was a hard week for me last week.
 
I feel drained.  I feel tired.  I feel like I am starting to obsess again, over everything.
 
Everyone says its nothing to worry about. I worry.
 
I often feel like the whole world can cope with everything except me.  Everyone can relax and take things in their stride except me.
 
I want my child to know that I love him.  I feel insecure as a parent again.  Tears are just a word away. . .I have cried a few times this past week.
 
Hormones? Who knows?
 
I just want everything in my life to be within paradigms that I understand, when it isn't I feel like I'm lost in a whirlwind.
 
I am sure I will get over it in due course, but right now I am feeling weary.


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  • evil_twin said on Mar 16, 2008....
    Polar, I know how you feel. And with that said, that means you're not the only one in the world who feels like they can't cope or relax. Because I'm the same! So at the very least, there is one other person out there who doesn't take anything in stride either. I worry about everything too. In fact, sometimes I worry that I worry too much. How's that for obsessive?

    I hope you feel better soon. I often get tired like that too but it eventually passes. I hope your mood passes quickly.....

    -evil_twin LA
  • pickersplock said on Mar 16, 2008....
    I've been right there where you are and need a big hug!
    And a week of rest!
    It'll pass, it will!
  • gingersoul said on Mar 16, 2008....

    Dear Pollie....it hurst to read you are in this mood again....you are too caring ...you worry like an eagle over her nest but sometimes you feel just left alone on that peak...

    I wish you could see - in moments like this one - how smart, witty, sweet, funny, deep and tough you can be. And never doubt you are a good mother for Tigger...in this case ..you can be really silly....{hug}

  • silverwhisper said on Mar 16, 2008....
    polar, are you sleeping enough?

    [hug]

    ed
  • Lucytorial said on Mar 16, 2008....
    Polar there is nothing I can say to help you and I wish I could. If a thought could travel and turn into a physical action I'd be hugging you right now.. 
  • skald said on Mar 16, 2008....
    Oh my dear Polar, little Tigger knows very well how much you love him. How can you think otherwise. If every parent was like  you the world would be good. Love and hugs my friend. (((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs again))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
  • quietone said on Mar 16, 2008....
    {{{{{hugs}}}}}}} my dear friend polar. this too shall pass.  hang on to that faith and believe that what you don't see is still at work.  You are a wonderful parent and it shows in tiggers eyes~
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Mar 16, 2008....
    Polar....  Do I need to link you to my relaxation post again?  All you need to do is ask.  I'll send you there.  :)
  • MissMimi said on Mar 16, 2008....

    Oh, polarbunny...  You sound so tired and stressed out.  If I could be there, I would sit and put my arms around you and we would listen to the quiet together.  I have been where you are.  I am a worrier, so believe me I understand. 

    Come and sit with me... 

  • truthsayer said on Mar 16, 2008....

    Oh my dear, dear friend.  I hope that it is not my situation that has you so sad and worried, or feeling off balance.  Please rest assured that you are a very loving, very strong and wonderful mother.  I know this because you are loving, strong and wonderful to each and every person that you touch....you have the heart of a Godly mother.  You nurture every soul that you can.  Please know that your little boy knows and will always know that better than anyone else ever will, or could possibly ever know.    You'll see.  You can trust me on that.

    My children are the most wonderful jewels in my life.  They know me inside and out.  They accept me, love me...and yet, they amaze me every single day...with their insights, wisdom and passion for being children of God.  

    They inspire me.

    Don't you see?

    That's how it is supposed to be?

    We that love God are allowed to help to heal each other...generation by generation.  We give each other permission to heal, to be well.  It doesn't matter if our parents loved us enough...or right, or wrong.  It matters that we remember that The Father loves us...and that we are all His children.  Remember sweetie?  : )

    It kinda sounds like you, talking to me, now...doesn't it?  ; )  Or like fearing talking to one of us, or both of us?  : )  That's because it's The Father's love pouring out of us for our sisters, for our brothers, for our children, for other young people...old people, sick/healing and well/healed people ; )

    Ok...I saw a little smile there.  I shared a tear with you too hon.  Cuz that's what we do for each other.  We breathe in, we breathe out...we exchange air...but it was created by God.  We exchange love, but it was created by God.  We share and pour out the love that He created...and we do love our babies, don't we?  No matter how old they get.   

    Love, love, love,

    Your forever friend,

    truthsayer  

  • truthsayer said on Mar 16, 2008....
    I wish for you, the oil of gladness beloved.
     
    truth : )
  • Carlar95 said on Mar 16, 2008....

    Hi Polar!

    This too shall pass! I hope you feel better sooner than later! Little Tigger's smile exudes the love he swims in day and night! I have no doubt he knows how much you love him and that you are great mum too. Relax!

    Many hugs.

    Carla

  • soleme said on Mar 17, 2008....

    Try to get some rest and down time for  yourself, it may not solve the problem, but it will give you temporary relieve.  I have the same feelings when I'm feeling stressed out or when depression hits.

    HUGS!!!!!!!!!

  • Fallyn said on Mar 17, 2008....
    i know that feeling all too well. *HUGS* here's hoping it will pass soon.
  • crybabylu said on Mar 17, 2008....

    I was going to suggest rest, but it sounds like others have already suggested that.  What happened to that couple you met at church?  Are you still in touch with them.  The ones from SA like yourself.

    I am sending warm thoughts and prayers your way.  I love you Polar....dee

  • diabolicdame said on Mar 17, 2008....
    Hi Polarheart.. You don't know me yet but I just wanted to let you know that I'm here, wishing you well and sending you love. I know how you're feeling.. We've all been there.. But I'm sure it'll be over soon.. Just hang in there.

  • travelr712 said on Mar 17, 2008....
    worry is the cornerstone of depression polar. but i know i can't tell you not to worry. all i can tell you is that, these feelings will change. for me, the more i convince myself that this is just a temporary state of mind and that the feelings will go away soon, the sooner they leave. that's a very simple explaination to a difficult process, but maybe it'll help in some small way?
  • fearing said on Mar 17, 2008....
    Oh Polar sweety, It's okay to obsess and worry sometimes.  It really is.  I believe life will come back into focus for you soon. 

    I was one of the friends who told you not to worry.  I know when something bothering us and we are told "not to worry" it is like telling the sun not to shine isn't it?

    There is more I want to say but I will say it in a PM. 
    You are one of my very dearest friends and I love you to pieces.  Smile okay?
  • Alyss said on Mar 17, 2008....
    {hugs} polar
  • polarheart said on Mar 17, 2008....
    Twinny, I know you understand. . .we can form our own kind of "normal", hey? LOL!  Thank you for coming here to let me know I'm not alone.
     
    Pickers, well I give you a ((((hug)))) Feel better?  It WILL get better, as you said.
     
    Gingersnap, you seem to know me so well.  Your words are right on the money.  Thank you so much, dear Ginger!  (((hugs)))
     
    Ed, probably not sleeping enough.  Been very lonely as Mr Polar has been working 9 solid days running. Thanks for the hug :)
     
    Aaw, Lucy, thank you so much for hugging me, I REALLY appreciate it (((hugs)))) to you too.
     
    My dear mommy, Skald, thank you my friend.  Your words heal me (((((((hugs)))))))).  I cannot express my gratitude for you!
     
    My other mommy, Quiet, you also just say the right things to make me feel better. . .yes, I need to focus on walking by faith, thank you for reminding me (((((hugs))))).
     
    Grape, yes babe, some relaxation would be great.  Actually just some support (Mr Polar has been working 9 days but is off now) its been hard going without him.
     
    Dear Mimikins, I would SO LOVE to come and sit with you and be held.  Actually, can I sit on the floor and put my head on your lap?  Thank you, my friend, I can feel you reaching out to me through time, space and distance and I can feel the love in your words.  ((((((Much love)))))))
     
    Dearest Truth, I stand in amazement at you, my dear friend and I am humbled by your words.  I actually feel a bit stupid for this post knowing how much bigger your problems are right now than my measely little issues.  Thank you for your uplifting words and for reassuring me.  You are such a special treasure in my life and I am here for you 100% too ((((((((big hug)))))))))
     
    Carla, its so nice to see you again hunny, where have you been? Thank you for encouraging me too. . .you are also a very big inspiration to me knowing the trials you have faced as a single mom (((((((hugs)))))))).
     
    Soleme, thank you. Yes, I went and spent the day with a dear friend of mine and we just chatted and encouraged each other.  Down time is really important.
     
    Fallyn, hunny, you too have had huge issues to deal with, much larger than my own. . .again I stand in awe of your strength and the things you have gone through.  Thank you for being here for me now.
     
    Dee, thank you.  Yes, we are still in touch with our new friends and the bonds are getting stronger.  I was blessed enough to spend some real quality time with them today and we talked about the Word and about Yahuweh all the time, which was very uplifting for me.
     
    DiabolicDame, thanks for popping in to my not-so-happy post (sorry about that), I really appreciate your encouragement.  My head understands that everything will be ok, but my emotions can have a mind of their own sometimes!
     
    Trav, you are very right.  Today I was able to take a step back from my "issues" and my thoughts became clearer and I am certainly feeling a lot better.  Thank you.
     
    Fearing, well in case I haven't told you lately : I love you!!!  You have been a HUGE help in getting me through last week...I dont know where I would have been if it weren't for you.  Please dont let this blog make you feel that all your effort with me was wasted!  I cant express enough how much you mean in my life and how much I respect you, sweet lady!  ((((((Big Hug)))))))
     
    Alyss, thank you, dear.  Sorry for this frivolous post, I know you have much bigger issues on your plate. (((((((hugs)))))))) to you and prayers for strength to rise like the Phoenix.
  • Fallyn said on Mar 17, 2008....
    i'm just me. and i just put one foot in front of the other......sometimes i even run into walls......literally. *chuckles*
    tonight....i'm tired.
    really exhausted.
    thankyou though....cause tonight i feel seriously drained. saying i'm strong it makes me feel good.
  • queenparanoia said on Mar 18, 2008....

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    polar i hope you feel better... =)

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