I just spent the evening getting told off repeatedly for not living up to the expectations of local guy. I've known local guy for years. Over the years he's made many comments about his sexual ecapades. He has tried to pick up on other women in my presence. He has denied any of my attempts to become friends outside the booty call. No movies, no camping, no riding, nothing...
I've never told him about Master. I felt local guy had an ego and would not be turned on by the idea that i was an owned slut. I figured local guy was a don't ask-don't tell kind of guy. I was sure he wanted nothing more of me than an occassional piece of ass.
But, now i tell local guy that i had sex with someone other than him and he's upset because I've ruined his allusion. He feels cheated. He's extremely angry. He says he's been with no one else and expected that with the kind of great sex that we were having that i should have wanted no one else as well.
He says that having sex with more than one person is a dirty life and he feels dirty for having been with me. He says i'm a lonely person who does lonely things. He does not want to feel dirty or be with someone like me. He says that we were starting something so special and I ruined it. that i don't deserve and couldn't possibly want a relationship with anyone. that i had bad karma and deserved to have bad things happen to me.
My allusion was that he was fucking anything with a hole. I truely believed he wanted nothing more from me than a booty call. In fact we spoke about it. It just happened to turn out that in the last year or so he had a girlfriend and was faithful to her. Once they broke up I had been the only one he's hooked up with. He had changed or so he'd like me to believe now.
But, still i don't know if what he said about me is true.. i feel like hell
I miss Master and wish i could sit protected at his feet
