ummm i dont know what to say ive never done this before and there is ALOT to say and its sad that i have to put life on a blog because no one in my life can help me well i know im not the only one on here who is searching for their self  but am i the only one who thinks when im getting on the right path and i actually thought i had someone who cared and wanted to help that all that happens is that the person always has their needs first and i never see it i just think that hey u understand and know me and like me for me we end up in a relationship and i never finish what i started and im back trying to figure out who am i who is he what are we and im thankful i finally realized that thats what has been happening but how do i stop it because right now im stuck there and everyone is biased and i need to figure out what to do and soon because im on the path of breaking another heart losing more friends and the lost of a fantastic guy  that would be great for me not to mention the physical stuff like no place to live no job and of course no cash