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I have laundry piled to the ceiling it seems like.  I don't care.
 
There isn't an uncluttered inch in my house it seems like.  I don't care.
 
I have to figure out, for the 300 millionth time it seems like, what to fix for dinner.  I don't care.
 
I haven't worked on any quilting or cross-stitch or anything in forever it seems like.  I don't care.
 
I haven't been doing a very good job of keeping in touch with my friends it seems like.  Ah, now that I do care about.  But it doesn't seem to be enough to motivate me to do it.
 
I feel empty and there is no joy in my heart it seems like.  I want to care.  More than anything, I want to care.
 


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  • uniquely-ironic said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Aww, MissMimi, you have the blues.  I'd bet the visual clutter of the laundry and the hassle of the chores is just bogging you down.  Any chance you could take a break from the house for a little bit?
  • Mamie said on Mar 11, 2008....
    ugh! I hate when depression pops in for a visit, its just so....depressing! Do you think you can allow yourslef to step off that treadmill to nowhere and just practice "being"...for a little while? I hope you will give it a try...ya know we all have these times and no they are not fun...sending you Pennsylvania dork-like hugs....xoxoxox mamie
    (breathe.....breathe.....)
  • Alyss said on Mar 11, 2008....
    {[[hugs}}} for you Mimi. You do care, underneath it all where it might be hard time catch sight of from time to time but betimes life is just too... much and it gets in the way.
  • crybabylu said on Mar 11, 2008....

     

    Well Dern!!

    What are we gonna do to get you out of this Mimi?  This is not good, we need our Mimi feeling better!...love, dee

    (my house looks like a cyclone hit it, we still got trash that needs to go out from the open housse, but I am getting ready to take it out now)  I'm gonna send you a pm, that might help...

  • botoni said on Mar 11, 2008....
    MISSMIMICAKES! This little trick works for me....I wallow in the depression. I enjoy the shit out of it. BUT I put a time limit on it. I allow myself to let it just take me over whether it be for an hour, a day, two days...whatever I need. Then the timer goes and I m over it. Maybe I m simple but it works for me.
  • wombat said on Mar 11, 2008....
    I don't know what's got you in this little slump, (none of my business) but I get this way quite often.  The winter "got me" as I put it.  I had all these plans to do things but have gotten good at ignoring mess and just getting through the day. Things will get done when they get done--or not.  I hope this is a  temporary thing with you, though because I hate to hear of you sounding so down today.
     
    {{{{{{{a hug and a smile from me}}}}}}}
  • skald said on Mar 11, 2008....
    ((((((((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) you need summer and sun in your soul.

    Sorry that you feel this way. Hope you will feel much better tomorrow.
  • moonriver said on Mar 11, 2008....
    sunshine waking up sleepy earth.

    white fluffy clouds racing each other in the soft breeze.

    crocus peeping out of black soggy earth.

    chirp of warblers on trees teeming with green buds.

    child's laugh. dog's friendly bark. cat's purr on your lap.

    soulcast friends who are so generous with hugs and kind words.

    all these, and more, coming soon to a theater near you.

    some of them might be showing now.

    check 'em out, friend :-)

    need i say more...?


  • polarheart said on Mar 11, 2008....
    ((((((((Mimikins))))))))) Time to do something fun, something that will lift your spirits.  See a movie perhaps with your daughter or a friend?  Go to dinner with the girls?  I think you know its been too long feeling like this and its time for some change. . .for the good of you.  Dont worry about all the chores, that stuff is not important, but getting to feel better on the inside is what matters. I send you much love and tender-loving thoughts.
  • Eilan said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Sending you a hug and a dildo-smack.
  • silverwhisper said on Mar 11, 2008....
    ?! a dildo-smack?!

    [flees]

    ed
  • Eilan said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Hey, it's good for what ails ya!
  • silverwhisper said on Mar 11, 2008....
    note to self: use upon next encounter with social conservative. :>

    ed
  • mobil said on Mar 11, 2008....
    You care Mimi, you care a great deal, your body chemistry is off and it's causing you to not see life as you are accustom, but you care.
  • quietone said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Yes I agree... cabin fever... winter needs to be OVER now!  {{{{hugs}}}}  don't feel too awfully bad I think we can get like this from time to time.  And rmember this too shall pass and once again you will be cooking supper for the 301 millionth time.
  • Me-Myself&I said on Mar 11, 2008....
    As soon as the sunshine can warm you, you will feel better. Please don't be too hard on yourself. Take care.
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Oh dear...  What to do...  I have a million words to comfort you with.  You just need to pick one... 

    Snorkles?  Of all the words in the English language, you pick snorkles?  :D

    Okay...  A prescription for you.  A trip to the Bahamas, surrounded by hunky, tan natives, snorkling by the coral reef.  Howzat? 

    You'll be your chipper self in a minute.  :)
  • MissMimi said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Thank you for all your words of support, u-i, Mamie, Alyss, Dee, and botty, wombie, skald, moonie, and Eilan, Ed, mobil, quiltedone, and MeMy and GrapeApe.
     
    When I feel like this, I try very hard to keep it under wraps because I hate to sound like a whiner.  Writing it out helped today.
  • MissMimi said on Mar 11, 2008....
    Oh no!  And polarbunny!  How could I miss you?
  • EvilTwin said on Mar 12, 2008....
    [Hugs] Mimi.  Hang in there.  We care...
  • silverwhisper said on Mar 12, 2008....
    [trout-smacks mimi]

    you never sound like a whiner.

    ed
  • rupert7 said on Mar 12, 2008....
    mimi...... I really,really hope this at least makes you smile,maybe even cheer you up a little.

    mimi...... I really,really hope this at least makes you smile,maybe even cheer you up a little.
  • CayenneMan said on Mar 12, 2008....
      MissMimi after viewing the video that rupert 7 sent down . . .I don't think I care either. For God's sake surely I must have missed something in life. Hey MissMimi how about we do something a bit more exciting like go outside and watch a cup of water evaporate in the sun. Oh and by the way I think I got you beat with the laundry thing . . .I have cathedral ceilings in my house.
  • crybabylu said on Mar 12, 2008....
    I hope today is better for you. Is the weather affecting you too?  I know it gets me really down. How is your health doing?   .....love, dee
  • beyondtheveil said on Mar 12, 2008....
    mimi- Your words could have come from my wife so many times. This was when I was working, because I do help more now. She was upset many times about the never ending laundry and clutter, but I think what got her most was what to fix for dinner. She was commenting over the weekend what a relief it was that I had taken over the evening meal problem.

    And by the way, back in those days, it bothered her that she felt unappreciated. Ever had that feeling?
  • CreativeWoman said on Mar 12, 2008....
    (((((Mimi))))),
    Maybe a big heaping dose of Spring will help you get over the blues.   Since I'm a little late to your post,I hope you're feeling better by now.

    Maybe I should road trip to your house to pick up my marbles that you have clattering around in your junk drawer.  :-)

    Hang in there,

    CW
  • pickersplock said on Mar 12, 2008....
    I feel rather blah myself!  I think I'm going to take a trip to ther greenhouse and buy some primroses!  They always cheer me up! 
     


    This always makes me laugh though!

    Enjoy, MissMimi!

  • renaedarlene said on Mar 25, 2008....

    Hi MissMimi, I am new to this (as of last night when I couldn't sleep), your poem was beautifully written...the core of depression, not caring, and then the guilt of not caring.  You are not alone, depression is not new to me or my family, but I learned this.  After 72 hours in a psychiatric hospital for not caring anymore, for not being able to cope with life seeming like a ferris wheel where I, required to jump on a seat as it was revolving, was unable to....this is what I found.  Pick two things you want to do everyday.  Very small things that will make you feel accomplished.  (I picked reading the newspaper and taking my anti-depressants).  On a bad day, if that's all I do, then I've done enough.  I've accomplished my goals.  Reading the paper is a pleasure for me, taking my meds are necessary; which by the way, once they got them right, they gave me a new lease on life. Is that a possibility for you? There were countless days I sat in the parking lot of my work, sobbing, not wanting to go in....then turning around and going home and hiding on the covers.  It's called depression, and it's real.  It's not something you can talk yourself out of.  But remember this, life goes on whether we are here or not, so let the laundry pile up, and the dishes, and on those days, just do your two things, and crawl back in bed.  Give yourself permission.  And possibly, look into meds.  I take 45 mg. of Celexa, 75 mg. of Wellbutrin.  Will take them for life, but they have given me back my life.

    Sorry this is so long, but I feel your pain.  Also, I just wrote my first blog, called Shades of Gray.  I wish I could give you a hug. I am so sorry.

    renaedarlene

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