course im gonna complain, why not, you dont have to read this, im not here to entertain you nor make you pity me,
im 19, im alone in the world. im depressed and this blog is the only thing i believe at the moment will spare me some time.
another fruitless attempt at hope, how she mocks me, hoping something, or someone, will come along and spare me some time to listen to me
i often feel alone, isolated, no one listens to me or just doesnt care about my opinion. they tell me im wrong and ill fail. all my life and here i am at a young age. standing on a very large building waiting for the final curtain
im incapable of laughter, my best friend brushes me aside practically every day, all my friends are alchoholics of druggies, (in which i do neither, perhaps thats why i feel isolated)
i try so hard to help people, and yet they seem to walk over me, i only ask to be noticed to feel like i am part of the human race.
every day is the same a endless blur of life and dreams, im starting to loose where one ends and one begins.
yes im psychic too, and a philosopher too. im moody, aggressive and tacless. extremely honest and is incapable of getting anywhere in life
so i take this oppurtunity to express myself, to find a new output, i shall write about the world and use these experiences to fuel my anger and hatred at it, maybe ill find something new, something unexpected
im an existentialist damnit and proud of it!
Retired posted on Mar 11, 2008
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killingme4u said on Mar 11, 2008....
hey.get where ya coming from real well.i do my bitchin here alot of the time.your not complaining at all.everyone gotta vent somewhere.the people here are pretty cool.you'll fit in.give it a chance.be cool to yourself.hope see ya around more :) -
Mr.President said on Mar 11, 2008....
I too am extremely honest. Killingme is right this is the place to be to bitch and complain and philosophize. It is also the place for unwanted advice, criticism, comments. That my friend is where i come in, lol...sounds to me like you enjoy being depressed. U say u want to be noticed by society, society notices depressed people, they also avoid them at all costs because its contagious. My advice, put on a helmet and plow through. Or in the words of my favorite comedian denis leary,"Denis my parents didnt love me enough wah wah" "Ya? well my parents beat the hell out of me every day, SHUT THE FUCK UP"...i love that part in the sketch because it reminds me that if u think ur life sucks, someone elses is ten times worse. Anyways i promise im not a bitch i just dont like to give people false comfort. I could be all "aw, its ok ur young ull get through be strong there is so much out there for you" but id sooner put a bullet in my head than tell someone that. I keep it real. Anywho im subscribing to u because i find u interesting. Keep up the good bitching, makes me feel better about my life : P
Warning: im extremely sarcastic, take nothing i say seriously
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Mr.President said on Mar 11, 2008....
How do people not listen to you? I dont get it...u say something, they hear you, if they didnt hear u, u pin them to the ground and scream it in their face. There are two kinds of people in the world: people that get shit done, people no one remembers...its a choice, not something your born into. You are in control of your entire life. If u want to be noticed, make people notice you. In the words of a fellow soulcaster thet helped me pull through a devasting breakup "fake it till u make it"...it really works. I too help people and get shit on. I dont help people to get anything in return. I EXPECT people to be nasty and choose to help them anyway. Here is a valuable piece of advice. FUCK EVERYONE ELSE do things for you. Im 20, i realized ages ago that people suck, fuckem, the only person u can rely on is u. Some people may see that as depressing, i think it is incredibly empowering. -
Fallyn said on Mar 17, 2008....
complain away.
i was surprised that you're only 19, considering your username.
interesting.....
what's with the name?
curious.
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