It's a record. I stayed up all night and ended up FINALLY falling asleep at 8 a.m.
I wish more people were awake at between the hours of 12-5 a.m. It's only then when I feel alive. When I feel like all my thoughts come together and I'm seeing everything with both eyes open. Last night, I was listening to the radio, to some religious radio program. I was so tempted to call in and ask the host to help me find God. Is it so bad that I'm an atheist? I don't think so. My mother does. She keeps telling me that someday, I'm going to realize that Jesus is the Savior and that God exists. It's sort of funny, I still have a "picture" of Jesus in my bedroom, simply because it's been there since before I was born. I keep it there out of respect for my mother. Some people have told me I should just take it down. They say, "That will help your mother realize you truly don't believe." I think that's silly! I really do. I just laugh. It's just a picture and it's doing no harm. Besides, just because I'm an atheist, most people seem to think it means that I have no respect for any sort of belief in a higher power. I remember the first time I told my two of my closest friends I didn't believe in Jesus. One of them actually gasped. lol They both stared at me, gaping, eyes wide with shock. The thought of it still makes me smile. I hope if anyone's reading this, they don't get the wrong idea. I'm not smiling out of some sort of cruelty. I'm smiling because... well, I honestly didn't think it would shock them as much as it did. I think I'm going log off now and read some Plato.



