More so than not lately, I have had an interesting perception on life. I have seen the best side of people, the worse side of people, and the wow I didn't know you were like that side of people. These sides have come out more so lately than ever. Am I being tested cosmically? Am I being put through some sick test for someones pleasure? I don't know.

What I do know is that even though all this shit is going on, I have been able to retain myself. People talk shit, guess what, I don't listen. I tell you off, and I go on with my day, I never dwell, as that would mean you got to me. And guess what, not many people do. Except those overly Christian people, who try to convert you, and the Jahovas and mormons who go door to door at 8am in the morning. ASS HOLES! You never see Pagans or anyone like that knocking on your door at 8am in the morning asking you if we can speak to you about the goddess! Seriously, you guys suck hard core.

Although I have been though all this shit, somehow, Lily and I are doing GREAT. We were officially told the other day that we were "obsessed" with each other. It made us laugh. We both agree obsession is usually not wanted, or known as stalking, this, is wanted... greatly. heheheh... I have an internet stalker or two. I know I do. They are friends of my girlfriends, and I think that they are seriously stalking my myspace and shit. I am not scared to say jack shit to anyones face, so I will tell you to get a life. I have a myspace tracker, and I see you are always checking up on me. Fuck off, you stalking retards, and get a life, for real.

Other than that, life is great. The move in thing, really isn't bad. We have not fought, argued, or anything thus far. We talk out anything that is bothering us, and we are all good. Usually the things bothering us are my ex. I am not too happy in that department either. I am tired of the fighting, and it is not my girls battle to fight. I can not WAIT until we get the fuck out of there! So soon, so so so so soon... New place, and no Ex. No connections to her, or anything. She always manages to throw something in my face. Your on my cell bill. You are on this, I have this I know this. Guess what, this is blackmail. Now I will tell you, Lily knows everything, and accepts it, so guess what, we are not going anywhere, and we are completely happy. It is really sad, she says all these people say shit about me, but really, it makes me laugh, that all those "people" who "say shit about me" Hang out with me on the regular, and do nothing but bitch to me about how crazy she is, and how she needs to get over it all, and all she does is talk about me. lol... FUnNy... Seriously... wow. I choose not to say anything. I don't want the drama. I don't want any of it. I just want her to STOP BITCHING at me for things that happened forever ago, never happened, or never will. Seriously, calling me at work to bitch at me for a pair of .99 cent pair of gloves! Seriously, grow up, and get over it. OMG! I am so done. If she bitches about that, imagine what ELSE I get to hear about all the time! GODDESS! Can I talk to you? I need to talk to you, We have to talk. All sayings of hers. I am so fucking tired of it! She says she can not wait till I move out, and she can be free from my crap, well she has NO idea how tired of hers I am. She is underhanded and sneaky and manipulative. Many others who talk to her, or as they say, she bitches too agree. She is trying to control me. I didn't see it until a day or so ago, but OH YEAH I see it now. Not happening lady. Sorry... I am moving with my GIRLFRIEND, and we are not going to be anywhere near you. If I go to SoCo, you can deal with it. Move on, get over it. No guilt trips anymore, I will not fall for them anymore. Everyone agrees, you guilt me, and are controlling and manipulative, you just don't see it...or do you? On top of the we need to talks and all that, let us not forget all the angry knockings at goddess knows what time, 50 BILLION times in a day. Obsessed much? Or do you just like watching me and my girl sleep naked next to each other? Seriously, that is creepy. I swear the other day when we were asleep in bed, she came in 5 or 6 times. Bull shit. I am done. I will be out of your life soon enough. Thank goddess. So keep talking your shit, cause I already know what you say about me. It all comes back, adn it will all come back to you... in Karma.

On a positive note, my surgery went well. Outside of A LOT of back pain, and some stiffness, I am feeling a lot better. I am already feeling a positive difference. So, yeah, I will leave on that positive note, because I never can for some reason. I will talk late

Iceis Starr

P.S. Stop stalking me online stalkers. I know who you are. It is logged every time you get on my page. I know who you are, and who you know. Get a life. She doesn't have to edit or sensor shit, she is who she is, and she will say what she wants and feels. She is too awesome not too. Fuck off

So much for the positive note.