My ex called last night so i answered it. It doesn't settle well with me to vecte things like they are so i thought it'd be best to talk it out and end things on a positive note. We ended up talking for 5 hours! I explained my thoughts, said i agreed with his text, and said the famous last words. The talk didn't end there. Instead he apologized and decided he'd changed his mind... again. He was very enduring, honest, sorry, and sweet. I kept repeating my side and sounded like a broken record. There was no raised voices or name calling what so ever. I'm proud of myself for my calm tone and ability to express myself well :) He promised and pledged so many things i've longed to hear for a long time. The ball is completely in my court. Sounds good but it's harder this way. I'm soft. :-( Never the less, i told him i'd think hard about my decision and do alot of praying. Am i stupid... a dumbass perhaps? I don't want to give him false hope because i can't help but care about his precious and fragile heart. I explained that i'm set on my answer but asked for time to myself to really think and pray even harder about this.