I have not posted in about 4 months, but that does not mean I have not stopped by and checked in and made a few comments. I have been impressed by so many that post here, it like a very close family. Because of that, I have not written because of the fear of loss. I have been going through many emotional and mental changes in my life recently, and have come to the realization that I fear being close to people. I meet and make friends very easily and people tell me I am fun to be with, but at some point, I pull away, or I put up a barrier to keep them out of my life. I have a tremendous fear that if I care about someone that they will leave me, physical hurt me, or die. I know that these fears are based on the events of my childhood. I just wish there was a magic wand that I could wave and be able to trust and love and heal. All of my adult life has been based in fear. On my birthday this year I realized that, I need to overcome this fear. I have yet to figure out how to do this, but I am told that acknowledgement of a problem is the first step in finding a solution. So all you soul casters keep writing a lot of are reading, learning how to love, live and be happy because of you.
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Battycat said on Feb 20, 2008....
I'm a little like you, hi :-) -
fearing said on Feb 20, 2008....
I don't think we've met, so HI! -
namyogrl said on Feb 20, 2008....
Battycat hello thanks for stopping by if you are like me we should get along well. :)fearing Hi to you too nice to meet you! -
moonriver said on Feb 20, 2008....
it's normal to have that fear, namyogrl. and if you set your mind to it, you'll overcome the fear. hey, blog more often, will ya. that's supposed to be part of the solution... :-)
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namyogrl said on Feb 20, 2008....
Moonriver thanks I guess I dont want to sound like a broken record with all my issues. No need to bring down the rest of soulcast. I am trying to write each day now and learning some new postitve things about myself. -
Mamie said on Feb 20, 2008....
you can do this...we are all rooting for you! mamie -
silverwhisper said on Feb 21, 2008....
hey there, namyogrl, i haven't been around much lately so i'm sorry i missed you. good to see you even if for briefly.
mamie's right: we are. :>
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Peanuthead said on Feb 21, 2008....
And a big Kiss 4 u! Mwahhhhhh! -
secretlife said on Feb 21, 2008....
i think it's normal too...a way to protect ourselves.trust is always a leap of faith, and then we often wonder...hey, was that the right thing to do?i know when i'm overwhelmed, i will pull away and try to make sense of things. i won't even tell my best friend until i sort it out.i think if you blog just about what's at the front of your mind, you'll find it easier than you think. -
namyogrl said on Feb 21, 2008....
Mamie, thanks for the encouragemented thanks for stopping by
Peanuthead thanks I needed that!Secret I am trying to blog more regularly, I am glad you stopped by thanks.
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