I called my sister last night to tell her about the upcoming wedding.  We spent six hours on the phone!  You have to understand we only live less than 1 1/2 hours from each other but we very seldom talk.  I found out last night why.  My illness.  It seems as though I had said many things to my sister that she found hurtful and that she knew there was something wrong with me but didn't know how to say anything without it sounding like she was harping on me.  I cried last night and I was very humbled.  I had no idea.  This has been going on for at least 13 years because she had spoken to our father about it and he was been gone 13 years.  What did I do to my family??  I am so very thankful that she is an understanding person and that she loves me unconditionally.  I think in time we will be just fine now. 
I also found out some things last night about her deceased son's wife that I really didn't need to know.  she is such a strange person.  She married his best friend after the best friend left his wife of 25 years after my nephew died.  She has moved to Germany because he is in the Army and he is now in Iraq.  While he has been gone she has removed the children from school because the girls are being teased and the schools have computers which "have the devil in them";  she has legally changed the baby's name from Herbert Lee to Timothy.  Because "she didn't want him growing up in his father's shadow.  The girls are only allowed to call him "Timmy".  I know this is not all that is going on but my sister wasn't ready to talk about it.  I hurt for my sister so much.
I also found out that my sister had been having hallucinations for most of her life.  I had no idea.  I won't go in to detail, just suffice it to say that suicide was involved.  She is fine now after going through therapy.
I found out how she felt about our lives while we were growing up.  I found out she didn't know I was agnostic and she is okay with that but holds out hope that I will someday find my way back.  She and her husband have had some real marital problems over the last 6 years.  They are okay but it has been difficult.
My sister is coming to our celebration!!  She can't come for the ceremony because she has prior plans, but can arrange her schedule to be here for the celebration!
I talked to my mom two days ago and she was happy but didn't really want to talk about it.  I talked to my brother tonight and the first thing that came out of his mouth was "are you okay?  How are you doing?".  I know where that came from and I appreciate it.  I just wish he could see that I am okay now.  Maybe he needs to call my kids and talk to them about it so he gets another side of the picture.
We have a minister now and we have been given some ideas on places to hold the ceremony.  I have found a cake I want.  He has asked his friend to stand up with him.  I have asked my friend to stand up with me.  I have spoken to the florist about the little nosegays for the granddaughters.  The youngest daughter and I spent most of the day Saturday out running around.  Can't seem to find a top I like and that looks right on me.  Picked up my ring Saturday too.  It's really really pretty!
There are probably more things I should be telling you but my brain just went blank!  LOL