傷感的戀人

Very tired, very drained, very depleted of energy.  Everyday I am fighting, fighting for life.  Will I be able to make it?  Did I make the right decision, the right choice?  Am I hurting more people?  Am I doing the right thing?

Tired, very tired.  This is worst than jogging round the field.  It is pain in the heart, not pain in the muscles, but pain in the cardiac muscles, the only special muscles we have. 

Wishing and doing is just so difficult.  It takes two willing party to clap the hands.  I am the willing spirit but those are the minds that are ruled by the devil... 

Who is not ruled by the devil today?