When I think of it all in terms of a new beginning it pisses me off to no end that I am where I am.  I worked my ass of for all those things that Tye and Kellyn are living with. Its that thought that branches off into all the other stupid stuff they both pulled the past couple months.  I am thankful that anymore it only takes about two minutes before I realize again that I am better off where I am now.  With both of them, the signs were there months before I was willing to believe them.  Who knows how long Kellyn had been cheating on me and I always thought Tye was kind of a hypocryte.  Neither here nor there we are now where we are and I know that I am happier then I have been in almost a year.  My biggest regret is that I didn't take Heidi with me.  I should have because she was more mine then either of theirs and I know that they don't give her the attention she deserves.

 

Anyway, I figured it was important for me to get all that out there just because...well in my last posts that is where I was most of the time.  In the fucked up world of lying and cheating.  I am past that and into a world of me.  I believe that this was the best thing to happen to me because I am working at Addiction Treatment Services and going to school for my master's in counseling psychology and found something I am really driven to do and love.  It is funny, my entire life I fought against going into counseling because I hated counselors of all kinds and I didn't want to do it.  Now that is what I am going to do and I really have found my place in it all.

 

I am not trying to say I am completly ok with everything because I am not.  However I am in a really good place with it all.  I realize that most of it was in no way my fault and it is all a really good lesson in listening to my instincts about things because they are usually right.  I also learned that I will never check someones e-mail again because it takes weeks of not trusting someone to get me there and I haven't been wrong yet; I'll just leave someone if I get to that point again.  The fighting is not worth it anyway and it never fixes anything.  I am also not trying to say I don't care about Kellyn; I hope she gets all she wants out of life and finds her happiness; I am just glad she doesn't get to hold me back or lie to me anymore.  I know I am better where I am now.  I know I am an amazing person with a lot to offer people and if you feel differently, good for you, kiss my ass.