My life was so empty before you came along. Never changing, never growing. I was stuck. Stagnant. And lonely. Lonelier than anyone really knew. Once again, I had done that to myself. I often hid myself away from the world out of fear. Every time I ventured out there and allowed myself to meet someone, it always ended badly. In disappointment or boredom. I was looking for something better. Something magical. Something that I wouldn't ever need to question, because I'd just know.

    It was a fantasy. A dream that probably would never come true. So I doubted it and doubted myself. Who would choose me as their only one? I assumed, no one.  After all that had been the pattern. Either they didn't take me seriously, didn't like me, or I didn't like them. Nothing was falling into place. It was all wrong.

    Then came you.....

    Meeting you was when time stopped for me. For the first time ever, all the noise in my head quieted down. I had no doubts or worries or insecurities. Just seeing your face for the first time was enough to calm my inner demons and comfort the scared little boy who lives inside me. You have something about you that can only be described as, something that belongs with me.

    You are the piece of myself that I was missing. The part that I didn't realize I was living without, but once I found it, I knew I could never go back. You bring me joy and love and comfort and laughter and safety. I never had those things in my life before. Imagine an existence without those key parts of life, and that's what I was living. It was sad and lonely and frightening and devoid of light.

    I may sometimes inexplicably slip back into that old life. But it's never because of you. It's because of me. You've made me as whole as I'll ever be, but I came into this slightly worn and tattered. Those pieces can't be fixed by anyone but me. And I'm trying. So hard, I'm trying. And your patience and love are what's keeping me afloat.

    When I feel like the world hates me, I know you don't. You're always on my side. Never wavering. Even when maybe I'm completely wrong, you stand by me. You support me. And you're patient with my moods, knowing that eventually the storm will break. And when it does, I'll be back to give you everything you need too.

    I never want to be selfish and simply take from you. I want to give you everything you give me. I want to give you joy and light and love and safety and laughter. I'm good at laughter. I know I make you smile. Even when I'm down and feel as if I'm nothing, I can make a joke about it, and your laughter brightens me up. And it shows me that the world is not ending. It can't end as long as you're laughing.

    So for you my love, on this Valentine's Day, I want to say that I love you. And I appreciate you. I adore you. And you've saved me so many times, I want you to know that if you need saving, I'm there. If you need me, I'll drop everything just to be by your side. Even if I'm barely hanging on myself, I'll put it aside just for you. Remember that. And remember that I'll always love you. Forever and always, eternally....

There’s something that I cant quite explain
I’m so in love with you
you'll never take that away

and if I said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when I’m not around
asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do I try too hard to make you smile
to make us smile?

well I will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me?
I cant believe
you actually picked...me

I thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then I fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)

you take away the old
show me the new
and I feel like I can fly
when I stand next to you
so while if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
I take the words you gave