I was wrong, I am wrong and I hope I will not be wrong.  What is right and what is wrong? There can be no secret left unknown if you let it all out from your brain and from your heart -- just like Edison Chen and Gillian Chung.  No secret can remain forever.  But why am I doing all these?  Why am I letting such ugly domestic affairs out of the bag?  Am I wrong or is this what I am destined to do? 

One pain gone or merely subsided, another pain come.  This time, my heart is bleeding, deeply injured yet again.  Why?  I can blame no one.  Really I have myself to blame. 

I have to control, I have to.  I have to keep secrets and secrets will vanish with me on the day I rest in peace.  There is no secret place in the internet.  When you want people to stop, just like Edison did, he backfired.  Why am I doing this here?

Life is so ironical and contradictory at times.  It is really confusing, amusing and it is really a joke.  I just got a joker today in my cards!  Can I ask for new cards?  How to play the game now? 

I don't know how to continue the game.  I don't know what seems to be good is really GOOD.  What seems to be bad, might turn out to be good.  Confusing, confusing. 

If only I can escape... But I would not want to be irresponsible either.  I will not escape.  I will fight with YOU.