It is something, how healing works sometimes. Some doors are looked so tight, they are difficult to open. Last night, a series of events help pry that door open for me, thus bringing me long awaited healing, or at least help start me on the path.
It was 12:54 am, I noted, I had been conversing with Grace on SC about some random things on my heart and mind, ... and I think that is where the key started turning in the locks on my mind and heart.
But, going back over the days events, one significant thing happened at noon on Sunday. I had dinner with my older sister, and I hadn't had a chance to sit down and converse with her much since my brother had died....she and I are not close....she thinks JR & I are too passionate about life in general....religion, politics, etc...
But I instigated the get together, to tell her what has been happening to my health since August, because some are heredity factors, and I wanted to make sure if she was having any symptoms, of the cholestrol, chest pains, high blood pressure, that she was going to have them checked out.
Jumping forward, after my conversation with my SC buddy, bless her heart, because she definitely was the key....I was clicking off my tool bar, and Lucytorial's post about opening the door, flashed on my screen, of a youtube featuring a vet playing and singing about things he is having to live with from war experience....
I commented , because it stirred up emotions in me about my now deceased dad who went through World War !!, then I sat down, and for some reason starting sketching a picture of a man, I do this from time to time to settle my mind, I have numerous sketches of pictures I have done at random.
When I looked at the sketch, It was a dead ringer of my brother who had passed 2 yrs ago this coming March.....So, I posted the picture on my blog, and titled it My brother, I still miss you, and all I was going to say was like a short memorial, with a few details, and when I got through and read what I had said.....for the first time since his death, tears of healing began to flow............
