It's been a few days since I've written anything. Mostly because there wasn't anything really noteworthy to talk about. But then sometimes I just feel like I should write something. I'm not sure why. I suppose I could ramble on about the fragments of interest that happened, that don't really deserve an entire blog devoted to them.
Work still sort of sucks. I still don't like the new girl, but I did talk to her. I asked her how she was enjoying the job and she said she thought it was great. I was kind of hoping she'd tell me she hated it, so I could segue into the problems and maybe tell her it was time for her to go. But that didn't happen. I did ask her if she found the socializing distracting, which was a nicer way for me to ask her why she was being a bitch to everyone.
She just said that she was fine with it, but that she wasn't used to people crowding around her desk and wanting to talk. At her old job, she sat out in a lobby by herself and the only people who talked to her, were clients that she greeted.
So I decided that I'd just keep watching her progress. It's a new environment for her and I want to be fair. She's been doing a little better too. But she's still a little snotty if you offer any sort of criticism. I'm still on the fence. But I technically have three months to decide fully whether or not to keep her, without it being a huge ordeal to let her go. Wait and see is my tactic...
In haunted house related news....I think I saw something in my hallway the other morning. It was really early and still dark outside. The hallway wasn't pitch black, but it was dark. And I started walking down it and I swear I saw a person shaped shadow standing at the corner. The same corner where we captured that red thing with the camera.
It was taller than me and it was solid black. It was a different type of black than just the darkness in the hall. It was thick looking. Not transparent. And it had a definite form to it. And the closer I got, it moved backwards around the corner by the bedroom where I couldn't see it. And when I looked down there, there was nothing there. Creepy.
I still haven't had the time do any research on the house, but eventually I'll try and get around to it. For now, I guess we're just content to live with an unknown ghost thingy. They don't seem like they're unfriendly, so that's a plus. They just love this corner by the bathroom. Something had to have happened in there. Things sometimes happen in other places in the house, but that bathroom is definitely the most active spot.
In sleeping news....yes, I said sleeping news. That's how boring I am lately. I think sleep is news. But awhile back I had this thing where I'd wake up at the same time every night. That went away, but now it's back. My new time is 4:42am. Every night for a week, I woke up at that time. It's so weird. I read somewhere that if you have occurrences like that, your spirit guides might be contacting you. Apparently they have set times when they like to do this.
Don't ask me if it's true or not since I know a lot of people probably don't even believe in spirit guides. But I do. The only problem is, I have no idea what they're contacting me about because I don't remember. If it's important, hopefully I'll remember it someday.
I've definitely been having weird dreams too. I can't recall all of them, but I always wake up feeling weird and unsettled after them. The one I do remember was about me and Natalie. We were driving down this really deserted highway, somewhere in the country. No place around here, that's for sure.
And the car I was driving was a blue station wagon like the one my parents had when I was just a baby. And it was filled with stupid knick knacks on the dashboard. Like dancing hula girls and little troll dolls with the furry hair. It was totally tacky and lame and believe me, my car does not look like that! And neither did my parents station wagon when I was a kid.
But we were driving and Natalie was really upset by something. I didn't know what it was, but I was playing twenty questions with her, trying to solve the mystery. Finally she told me she was pregnant. Whoa! I wasn't expecting that one. Especially since she was so upset about it. In the dream, I was just in shock. I didn't know how to respond.
But then she told me she didn't want it because she wasn't in the mood to have a baby. And she pulls a pregnancy test stick thing out of her purse and shows it to me. She said if she ate the stick, the baby would disappear. Before I could stop her, she started eating the pregnancy test like it was a piece of candy.
Not only was that gross and strange, but I was upset that she was making the baby disappear. She didn't even wait for me to say anything before she did it. I was really distraught and then I woke up. I've tried to figure out what the hell it means, since I'm usually really good about that. But mostly the dream was very specific and I can't find out what eating a pregnancy test means. That's not in my book.
However, a pregnancy test is apparently symbolic of a new phase in your life. I guess that relates to marriage, most likely. And it said I'm being put to the test as to whether I'm ready for all the changes in my life. I guess that fits. I just don't know what it means that she ate it! That part was weird. And so were the troll dolls.
Dreaming about an actual troll means I have a low self image and am prone to belittling myself. True. But I wonder if a troll doll means the same thing? I guess if the shoe fits, I should wear it. Apparently this was a panicky dream that I think I'm going to screw everything up somehow. Typical.
*sigh*
So that's my current life in a nutshell. I guess I had more to talk about than I thought. But I have no idea if it's of any interest to anyone but me. But that's okay. It just feels good to write something down!
evil_twin posted on Feb 07, 2008
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the_infernal_optimist said on Feb 07, 2008....
((hugs))
What a freaky dream! I'd be upset/unnerved by that a little too. That's way strange (and yes, gross) that she was just eating the pregnancy test! What did Nat think of this dream?
I'm glad that the new girl just might settle into things (I hope she does, or that something happens one way or another to let you know to let her go right away). Maybe she really is a little unsettled by the different atmosphere.
I have to write every so often too - hence the Pensieve tag I use at times. They're just random thoughts pulled out and typed in a post.
~Infernal
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evil_twin said on Feb 07, 2008....
Infernal--It was a really weird dream! Nat thought it was kinda funny, but disturbing too. She assured me that she wouldn't ever eat a pregnancy test, and if she did, she'd consult me first before doing it! I'm glad someone else feels the need to ramble on sometimes. I just like to write, even if I have nothing to say :-P -
quietone said on Feb 07, 2008....
e.t. well for someone who didn't have much to say...you said a lot! LOL I am so intregued about your ghost thingy, I can't wait to see if you ever find any history out about the house. and that dream..wow, now that was something! hoola girls, trolls, and eating a stick! OMG what are we gonna do with you!! hehe!! good to see ya though! :) -
evil_twin said on Feb 07, 2008....
quietone--I did say a lot huh? But it wasn't that interesting! I hope I can eventually find out some info on our house. I've just been so busy and tired lately, I haven't felt like being a detective. And my dream was definitely a weird one! -
carterbabe3 said on Feb 07, 2008....
ET - that was one weird, crazy and entertaining dream! You always keep me entertained by your crazy life! -
PAPERBACKWRITER said on Feb 07, 2008....
David Lynch came up to my mind after reading about your dream. Dunno why. . .
I think it is very nice of you to give the girl at the office a chance. Definitely a diplomatic tactic: wait and see. . .
I cannot comment on the ghost because I have not read your previous blogs about it. I am scared XD. Well, I´m usually not (hey, I watched Sixth Sense!) But I am having anxiety issues at the moment. . .just a phase.
All in all, I enjoy blogs that has slices of life. And yours are very interesting mixture.
= )
paper~
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wombat said on Feb 07, 2008....
What do you eat before you go to bed? Ha... Sounds like your typical, every day, run of the mill dream (not!) of anxiety about becoming your parents....I love these posts you are so good at writing! -
botoni said on Feb 07, 2008....
Could the ghost be waking you up at those weird hours? Good of you to give the new girl a chance. She might come around and adjust to the new environment. Grouchy/bitchy often goes away when the deliverer is surrounded by pleasant people. -
Mr_Box said on Feb 07, 2008....
That's a seriously weird dream! Interesting. Eating a pregnancy test. That is a new one. It's obviously tied into some sort of fears you have.
The ghost thing is just too cool. I'm glad it's not unfriendly though, or I might be worried. But it seems like it just enjoys hanging out in your hallway. You need to get cracking on the research. I'm curious too.
Sorry work sucks, but maybe the new girl will lighten up? Hopefully.
I like the spirit guide idea too. When you wake up, are you thinking about anything? Or are you just wondering why you woke up for no reason?
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CreativeWoman said on Feb 07, 2008....
I'm wondering if the something that happened in your house happened at the hour you are waking up. Maybe it is some sort of residual energy thing affecting you. I think it probably would have scared me even though it sounds cool.
Your posts are always nice to read. :-)
CW
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destinydiva said on Feb 07, 2008....
eviltwin, even your nothing to write about posts are hilarious!! you have a unique and very entertaining writing style :-) lol ~ "thats not in my book!" :-)
I have many thoughts on your dream, but its 1am and I cant think straight.... :-) xx
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Twylarants said on Feb 07, 2008....
ET~ You and your brother both have a way with words. Who did you guys inherit your gift for story telling from? -
evil_twin said on Feb 07, 2008....
carterbabe--Thanks :-) It was a weird dream, that's for sure!
paper--My dream did sort of seem like a strange David Lynch movie! I'm glad you enjoy reading my blogs :-) Thank you!
wombat--Thank you :-) I don't remember what I ate before I had that dream. Maybe it was Taco Bell? That might explain it!
botoni--It could be the ghost waking me up. I have no idea, but I didn't see anything when I did wake up. Maybe he keeps poking me until I wake up and then he disappears?
Mr. Box--When I wake up, the first thing I think to myself is, "it's not 4:42am is it?" And sure enough, it is! But no, I'm not really thinking about anything meaningful when I wake up. I'll get started on the house research someday. Promise!
CW--Thank you :-) It's possible something happened at that hour. I can't remember the other time I was waking up before. I'd have to go look at my old blog and find it. But it was around the same time. That's an interesting thought!
destiny--Thank you :-) Here I thought this post was boring but I managed to entertain! I'm glad.
twyla--Thank you :-) I think we probably have our father to thank for that. He tells a good story too!
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nursecutie said on Feb 07, 2008....
I have to comment about your strange dream because I still can't believe you dreamed that! I am pretty sure I would never want to eat a pregnancy test......and I wouldn't make our baby disappear either. If we had one! Which we don't. Just so rumors don't start up! LOL
The ghost shadow is a little freaky......I wish I had seen it! But I am sure that eventually I will see something because there is always some sort of adventure happening in our house......LOL!
Love you, baby.....don't have silly dreams about screwing anything up :) It's not going to happen!!
xxoo natalie xxoo
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evil_twin said on Feb 07, 2008....
cutie--Yeah, don't start any baby rumors! But I know if there was a baby, you wouldn't eat a pregnancy test to make it disappear. That would just be very strange and probably wouldn't work anyway :-P I love you too and I will try and have happier dreams. But I can't help it! My brain has a mind of it's own. Hmm. Does that even make sense? Probably not! -
lfbno7 said on Feb 07, 2008....
I think you would really like the book Journey of Souls by Michael Newton. -
crybabylu said on Feb 08, 2008....
Gads! dreaming about trolls, can't have that! Hope you start getting better zzzzzzzz's........ -
evil_twin said on Feb 08, 2008....
lfbno--I'll have to look for that book. Thanks!
crybaby--I do need to start sleeping better. But at the least they were troll dolls and not real trolls!
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silverwhisper said on Feb 08, 2008....
dude, i think your dream is your subconscious working through some lingering sense of guilt over not doing things the way your folks or nat's wanted re: the wedding. it's you two, isolated, alone, contained within a symbol of your past, heading off together and in the dream, nat doesn't want to be pregnant.
this suggests to me that you're uncertain or uneasy about what it means to become a grown-up: being married, having children, etc.
how's that sound to you?
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evil_twin said on Feb 08, 2008....
silver--You might be right. I'm not sure. I think the uncertainty about being a grown up and if I even know what that term means, is dead on. Which might explain why I was driving in a car from my early childhood....I am especially scared of being a parent, even though it's something I definitely want someday. I guess my brain is trying to work all of that out somehow. -
Holly-Go-Lightly said on Feb 08, 2008....
Hi Kyle!!!
you & I have had long running conversations regarding the paranormal~
however, I ask that you be very careful with this one. The dark "shadow-man"
is not normally anything pleasant. I'd have to say, in every case I've known of,
this type of manifestation is malevolent. Please don't do or say anything to
provoke it. It could be that it is disturbing your sleep, even affecting your dreams.
Keep me posted, and don't hesitate to find professional help on this one if you
feel things changing around your place.
**and for pete's sake~ next time stock up the station wagon with some snacks
will ya' so poor Natalie doesn't have to eat the stick!! haha (that was hilarious!)
~*~*~Holly~*~*~
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evil_twin said on Feb 08, 2008....
Holly--It's good to see you! We did have a lot of conversations about this sort of thing. You know, the shadow thing is something I'm a little leery about. Because we did have an instance where I woke up and found one of these shadow people standing over Natalie while she slept. It was very unsettling. I wrote a post about it here if you want to read it. That was the only time before now that I've actually seen anything in the house. But it's very possible that this is what's waking me up, but it disappears before I can see it. I got a creepy feeling from the shadow I saw by the bed, but the one in the hall didn't seem as sinister. I'm not sure if it's the same one. But I will be careful. I usually just ignore it and never try to actually speak to it. And you're right about the dream! I should have brought some snacks :-P -
merlin said on Feb 08, 2008....
Are u not scared of the the shadows ,and spirits? I would be terrified -
evil_twin said on Feb 08, 2008....
merlin--So far, I'm not really scared. The only time I've ever felt really uneasy is when I woke up and saw that shadow thing in our bedroom. That sort of freaked me out! But the rest of it isn't so bad. Maybe I'm just used to stuff like that? -
Holly-Go-Lightly said on Feb 08, 2008....
OMG! you really are spooking me...I don't want to freak anyone out, but the thing hovering over Natalie is not good. Please be careful my friend.
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silverwhisper said on Feb 08, 2008....
kyle, that's a perfectly natural thing to be reflecting upon after getting married. every now and again, do you suddenly stop, and think, "damn...i got married! wow! i guess this means i really am a grown up now!"
that happened to me for whole months after my wedding. :>
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evil_twin said on Feb 08, 2008....
holly--I was pretty freaked out about it before too. But then I hadn't seen anything like it again, so I assumed it was gone. But now I'm not so sure! We have some stuff around for spirit protection, but I might need to do something else too.
silver--That's exactly how I've been thinking! It still doesn't seem real. It's awesome, yet I still sort of feel like this is all pretend. I'm someone's husband! How did that happen? I mean, I was there, but wow, you know?
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silverwhisper said on Feb 09, 2008....
heh...savor it, kyle. it's a beautiful feeling, ain't it? :>
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vicious said on Feb 09, 2008....
crazy, mabey she ate it because really it would stop the pregnancy from happening.
think about it why would she have it in her bag in the first place lol.
but no dont really think about it youll know soon. . .. .
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evil_twin said on Feb 09, 2008....
silver--It is a beautiful feeling :-D
vicious--Since it was just a dream, I didn't really question why she had it in her bag. And what am I going to know soon?
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vicious said on Feb 21, 2008....
you said you woke up at 4:42 countless times for no reason? have you seen the movie 23?, 4 * 4* 2 = 32 flip 32 around " 23 " dreams that you have are in your head, theres no way you can have a dream about somethin you dont already know, well your sumb concious. i say youll know soon because you will, well in fact you already know what i means. you just have to ask your other self, understand? i see the mind as two parts .. -
vicious said on Feb 21, 2008....
you said you woke up at 4:42 countless times for no reason?
have you seen the movie 23?, 4 * 4* 2 = 32 flip 32 around " 23 "
dreams that you have are in your head, theres no way you can have a dream about somethin you dont already know, well your sumb concious.
i say youll know soon because you will, well in fact you already know what i means. you just have to ask your other self, understand?
i see the mind as two parts .. -
vicious said on Feb 21, 2008....
you said you woke up at 4:42 countless times for no reason?
have you seen the movie 23?, 4 * 4* 2 = 32 flip 32 around " 23 "
dreams that you have are in your head, theres no way you can have a dream about somethin you dont already know, well your sumb concious.
i say youll know soon because you will, well in fact you already know what i means. you just have to ask your other self, understand?
i see the mind as two parts ..
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