soo i dont know if this is what i want to do for the rest of ever .. like there has got to be something more cause right now i know i shouldnt be complaining but i feel like there is not much to look forward to and i know someone my age should not feel like that .
Now how do i get over this and like just start enjoying stuff !!!! Is it wrong to not know how to live ? thats not even normal .. why am i never normal ?! i just feel like i dont have enough time .. for anything and all those things i should be excited about .. make me stressed out i want to remember how it feels to relax and jus be happy and enjoy stuff !
i miss my boy friend and my mom and dad and want it to be like when i was little and had time to sppend with everyone and everything seemed good and easy ! it is wrong to want to revert back to your child identity .. i dont know maybe i just care too much what people think ...
just want life to be easy again .. and have a hard time making decsions about things like .. what socks to wear and school was easy and i didnt have to dedicate my life to it ! erGG



