When I was still in Zamboanga, I mentioned once, especially during that difficult time, that I be allowed to disrobed my entire life and be given an entirely different one.
That's what I was given now. I was given the strength to leave everyone and everything I have known all my life for something totally unpredictable, totally unknown. I didn't even know if where I was going will be good for me. I just sort of, closed my eyes and jumped!
It was frightening.
It was exhilirating.
It was exciting.
It was everything I wished for........until December 25, christmas day.
I was alone. I was lonely. No. I was miserable. It was during this day that I truly, truly wanted to be home. To hug my kids. To bring them shopping. To cook and just be tired of the preparations.
It was during this time that I hated what I wished for. If a flight home was available that day, I would have taken my flight back home. Good thing there wasn't any available cos of the season.
So I am still here.
Alone and surviving.
Quite happy actually.
:)
