All my life I have lived in my own house. Even when we didn't have much but back in Zamboanga I have lived in my own house. Well not really my own, but it's a place where I can do almost everything without having to worry what the owner of the house will say.
From birth up till I was 15 years old, I stayed with my grandmother. She was a termagant LOL but since I didn't have anyone at all, except her, she wasn't so bad. No one to compare to I guess hahaha
Then when my grandmother died, I moved in with my mother and stedfather. I lived like a boarder in that house. I wasn't used to living with my nana, she has supported me all my life financially, but I did not live with her. And I have a stepfather who was jealous of me. Jealous of the little attention that my mother gives me. He was used to having all the attention to himself. So there I was living with my mother but not living in with them in every sense of the word. I saw it as somewhere i could sleep, yet, I was not worried what she/he will say.
Then I got married, the first few months, I lived with my in-laws. It wasn't so bad too. And I wasn't worried too, cos I was the one who looks after the house. Then a few years after, we had our own house. And it was great. A house all my own.
And now, I am in Manila, renting a room.
I know nothing about the owner of the house save that she's the one I pay the rent to at the end of the month.
It's different. Even when I know that I have a right to the room which i rented, it still feels like I'm intruding. I find that I always tiptoe around the house. That I make sure I don't slam the door. I mean, I actually stop and make sure I don't slam the door. Hay, seems like a small thing but it really adds up to the feeling that I am somewhere different. I make sure I don't sing very loud or laugh as loud LOL
I mean, perhaps it's just me. But have you had similar experience.
It's really my first time to live alone. The nights during my days-off are driving me crazy. With no one to talk to and with just the walls as companions. Not even with my headphones do I feel like I'm with someone. Even when the DJ is already shouting in my ears.
