In my mind you are a goddess. A femenine figure clothed in white linen surrounded by light and holy breath. A vision conceived in love and trust. Your voluptious attitude over powers me. I am unconsciously drawn to you. Your words intoxicate me and I am high when we are together. I am addicted and I apologize. The spell that you have cast upon me has connected me with you so deeply, submerged in this frozen lake of life. I do not have the tools to break through the ice above to the surface. I feel stripped of all my strength as I feed off of yours. As your strength and hope deteriorates mine falls more feircely. I cannot help but think about your smile. I cannot help but remember and try to draw courage from the discerning look in your eyes two years ago.