Alyss's tags:
My stomach roiling.

My tears soaking my pillow.

My heart breaking.


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  • MissMimi said on Jan 25, 2008....

    Oh Alyss...  I wish I could sit with you and hold your hand, and let you talk out all these painful emotions.

    You deserve to be happy.

     

  • quietone said on Jan 25, 2008....
    I would take the other hand right beside mimi 
  • silverwhisper said on Jan 25, 2008....
    not that this is what you're really after, alyss, but for the nonce at least...

    [hug]

    ed
  • Zayda said on Jan 25, 2008....
    Ay...Alyss...I'm with Mimi and quietone. I wish I could come hold your hand as well. (Well but then you would need three hands....hmmm...We'll get around that.)

    We could all sit and talk over a good cup of tea or glass of wine.


    You are a good, good soul, Alyss. And you deserve much happiness.
  • the_infernal_optimist said on Jan 25, 2008....
    Make that four hands, Alyss. I'm so sorry you're hurting.

    ((massive Infernal hugs))

    I'll bring the chocolate.

    ~Infernal
  • catch22 said on Jan 25, 2008....

    Give this pain to me,and walk away free

    for with each rising sun a new day has begun

    so hold your head up high..and never let this life

    make you cry

  • Battycat said on Jan 25, 2008....
    {{{{hug}}}}
  • Kilgore_V_Trout said on Jan 25, 2008....
    Okay...I've gone back through as many posts as I care to to find out what all this depression is about and it's still a mystery. A brief clue, perhaps, as to why we're all in mourning???
  • Mamie said on Jan 25, 2008....
    oh don't you dare swallow any pain, nor push down any bad feelings...get them out, soul siste,r way out. Spill it to someone...and I wish you all the best. Adding popcorn to the wine, tea, coffee, chocolate and icecream...um, what else do we need? hugssssss.....
  • Jenna said on Jan 25, 2008....

     

    Alyss...so many times you have held my hand.....put your arm around my shoulder....tonight I am doing the same for you.  Breathe in deep.....exhale.....

    you will get through it......and on the other side.....well, it will be wonderful.

    Alyss....believe!

  • lfbno7 said on Jan 25, 2008....
    Poor thing. We have all been there. I know I've been there.
  • runningbear said on Jan 25, 2008....
    you've just been hugged
  • RollingC said on Jan 26, 2008....
    A big HUG to you Alyss.

    Rc
  • Me-Myself&I said on Jan 26, 2008....
    if you keep "swallowing"....it's going to be real hard to get it up and out. i know. take care of yourself.
  • polarheart said on Jan 26, 2008....
    Alyss, I am so sorry for your pain.
  • Alyss said on Jan 26, 2008....
    Kilgore, it's about being unable to speak plainly when you want to. It's about being terrified of saying the wrong thing. And it's about the consequences of doing so.

    I learnt years ago that biting back the words I might otherwise want to say was the only way of surviving within that relationship. Now I find myself having to do so again, though for not quite the same reasons.


    Thank you everyone. Your thoughts did help me though if i am honest it still hurts and will I think continue hurting until this limbo ends, one way or another.


  • hidufel said on Jan 26, 2008....
    Oh Alyss...:-( I wish things could be so for you. I know what you are feeling. You are so very strong, May you keep that and let it help you through this. My thoughts are with you and hoping you will win through to your hearts desire. Until then, I will offer what strength i am able, to help you with this. HUG.
  • carmachu said on Jan 27, 2008....
    Sorry to hear dear. *huge hugs* I hope things have gotten better.
  • Racerboy said on Jan 29, 2008....
    Well I hope you are an octopus, because you have plenty of hands to hold.  If you need someone to rant at, to get those feelings out, come yell at me.  Don't hold it in it isn't good for you, I can attest to that.  Good luck!
  • Alyss said on Feb 03, 2008....
    I'm still trying, still holding on and still hoping for the best. Your thoughts and offers of support have been much appreciated.

    We talked and both said a few things but the situation hasn't changed nor is it likely to. I suppose I just have to grow up a little and accept things for what they are or make the hard choice to move on.

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