I think about my life as a woman, a mother, a wife, a friend, an employee.

I have become lazy towards everything lately. My mind is empty or maybe not but I because I choose to empty it. I have become bored. I want to do a lot of things but physically and mentally I am not capable.

I am happy for my sister, she is determined. She has finished her thesis writing with "highly commendable" remark from her professors. So I am thinking if I can also do what she can do. In my mind I am confident but in reality I am weak and coward.

I don't know what awaits me... professionally and the whole of me.