If you have something terrible going on...if you feel blind-sided by something...pop in for a serving of "how to get what you want"....and if things are all good and you are already in tuned with your source of well being. let me tell you about how I got a pair of Uggs, (Tall Chocolate Brown) from...God. I am serious!! :))
So here we are...it looks a mess...how did we get HERE? The simple answer is that we expected it to be this bad, and so it is! There will always be situations that catch our breath, situations that cause us to jump and say WHAAAAT??? But would you believe me if I told you that you had a part, a major part, in how things turned out?
In these winter months, I have done the same as the mighty black walnut trees outside my window; I have turned inward pulling all my strength down into my core, my roots. I am pampering me, I am healing with God and I am serving in my community. I have learned to drop all expectations of "award" and turned my attention to (as Denzel Washington said) picking up an expectation of "reward" from God instead. He said: man gives the A-ward, God gives the RE-ward. I like that.
Let's begin with the books that have influenced my thinking this week, I am reading and have recommended to many of you, "Ask and It Is Given" by Abraham-Hicks as well as "Soul To Soul" by Gary Zukav. These books include information about the now popular topic of "The Secret" although I am not sure that is an actual title of a book or anything. But this theme of Attraction is very striking to discover. What's more: it has worked for me!
Over the holidays, I made out my resolutions over on Quiet's blog and I added some things on Nursecuties' (pardon me, Mrs. Twin's). I made a list of action items that connected me with people, doing things...that I felt would make my heart soar. I EXPECTED it to work. I expected to be joyful and happy! I was NOT wrong. I met with some friends down in Philadelphia at the Capitol Grille, a nice steakhouse restaurant near the Ritz on Broad Street, the heart of Philly. We enjoyed a fabulous meal and talked about our service to our community...remember, we are launching a non-profit to help cancer patients in our area.
After some discussion, the new president of our company said thoughtfully...I really, really wish I could PAY you for all you do. I shook my head, no...money, I said, makes things weird. We are all partners. What you do is as valuable as what I do and we are all in this together. No money. No way. We parted company with tight hugs and my one partner who is also female and I wandered around the shops, still fully decked out for Christmas. It was exhilarating and beautiful. We went into Macy's Philadelphia which has an historic lighting show at Christmas. Both of us had seen it as little girls with our parents...it was now located right in the middle of the shoe department. Shiny things...shoes...boots...ah, here was my payment:)) We sat on the floor with all the other shoppers as the pipe organ blared the carols, the lights went berserk and children and adults alike were mesmerized.
In between a set, I pointed to the boots on display. Girl, I said, I don't want money, but I spy something I do want...there on the table was the cutest pair of Coach boots. I picked them up later on. Whoever pays that much money for a pair of shoes, is crazy! But I said to my partner....there it is! My paycheck right there!! We laughed and caught a train home...it was joyful, to the max. Well apparently my little heart put that "ask" out into the universe without my consciously asking for boots. But here is the point that Abrham-Hicks makes. You make your intention known: you ASK. You can even add WHY you want it. For example, I WANT to be HEALTHY, because I want to be strong, vibrant, wife, mother....till an old age.
The key they say is to let go of the HOW and to let go of the WHEN. Ask it, intend it to be, expect it and so it is! Do not distract yourself with the details that the universe is in charge of. See? If you ask and then say I cannot be sick though ....because I am afraid of sickness, I do not like hospitals, I refuse to be sick...then you must realize that you are creating all sorts of blocks to your blessings. You are not ALLOWING the goodness to flow to you.
What you give your attention to is what becomes...if you are searching for your soul mate and you intend to be a good soul mate for someone and you are open and expect it, he or she will make themselves known. If you focus on how lonely you are, how you never get the right person, how you give everything and never get anything...these are the "realities" that you attract and it continues once more. UNTIL you change your mind. If you focus and get stuck in always mulling what you LACK, you will make that lack your truth.
So, this past Saturday, I was out with friends in a small college town nearby. I had made these plans because they were part of my New Years List of people to see. I even had the pleasure of my teenager coming with us as did the other daughter in the bunch..so this was a great big after- christmas party going on. We walked around town a bit, strolling and window shopping. We laughed that the girls were basically dressed so alike without trying to have been. They had on Ugg boots that each had received from "santa claus". I love to buy my daughter things like this, although I would NEVER spend that much money on my own for them either. Coach, Uggs, its all the same. I love them but I would never have them. I bragged that my daughter and I have the same size shoe and that I actually bought these boots so that I could share them. One couple told the story of how the dad went onto Ebay to find the "damn uggs" and how he ended up with four pair that he had to then try to get out of buying and or resell on Ebay. We told him what a putz he was and laughed at that.
So the restuarant was crowded and lively. We had a hundred million laughs and at dessert time we all ordered coffee drinks while the girls ordered the biggest brownie ice cream sundaes ever made. We all exchanged christmas presents. There were Williams and Sonoma kitchen gadgets, pretty towels and iron baskets for my other girlfriend. But they were all giggling when I got my gift and staring as I opened it. It was Tall Chocolate Uggs! Now who spends that much on their girlfriend?? It was absurd and I was confused. My friend explained...they had four pair, all the same color, all the same size. They gave one to their daughter...two they sold and "I" was the only other person who wore that size. I have never rec'd such a lovely gift and they assured me that the two they sold back on ebay went for more than retail pricing and that the cost was not an issue at all. (I was relieved).
I went home on Saturday night and threw on my sweats. It was one AM when I got into bed. But I got up once more, walked back out to the kitchen where all of our stuff had been thrown upon entry. I took out these gorgeous boots and I put them on. They are so pretty. I took a pix of them on my feet with my cell phone and I sent the thanks and pix to my friends who had gotten the biggest kick out of doing what they did. They texted back right then, how happy it made them to give them to me and how I had just popped into their minds as they remained stuck with too many pairs of Uggs.
The next morning, I put those boots on again (yes, I do take them off occasionally). And then I got it!! I EXPECTED these boots (well, not these, but nice boots) at any time, in any way, in whatever fashion. I had claimed them as my "reward". Then I forgot about it. God, however, did not forget and my paycheck for the fourth quarter of 2007, serving patients in need....well, that paycheck came in a box on Saturday night.
What do you expect?
blessings all,
mamie
