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Ok,  you will have to listen closely because I have a cold and I am losing my voice! just an attempt at humor.
Where to start? I guess with the fact that I am in a situation that i don't want to be in. i am with my family and the people that love me and I am completely alone! I never expected to be here and feeling this way. I guess you never see it coming when you think that you are in love. I spent three years giving my heart away to the most perfect being in this world. I loved to the maximum a human could possibly and live. I gave my time, my sweat, my tears and my pain to this relationship. It was ended really with a text message. She didn't think she could be the kind of person I wanted her to be when in reality she was the most perfect thing god could have given me!

Now she is gone and I have nothing and I know that alot of you might be thinking right now that that couldn't be true! Well you would have to be in position to really understand that.

i left some really great people where i lived just to make pickle happy and now I think about it, it was probably to make it easier on her. I am to the point right now where I don't really care. It is the only way I know how to deal with it. She hasn't called me in over a month to see how it is going and I didn't really expect her to.

i don't know what really else to say about it except maybe the smaller details and I doubt most of you really want to hear it. Anyway i am moving on as best as I can humanly possible.

I have been around and have been reading some posts and have actually commented on a few. I plan to pick back up where I left off and get back into the soul cast swing of things. I feel that this place has really helped in some sort of way. I don't think I could have really let this place go that easily. I have so many interests here and many interesting people and friends that I still need to comment to. I guess you are all just stuck with me so please be patient and mindful of my fragile mind and body. another joke if you have ever seen my pics!!!!

Thats it for now. I will be back posting and waiting for you ever truthful comments!


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  • the_infernal_optimist said on Jan 14, 2008....
    Ok, Wolfie, you really made me laugh with the "fragile body" comment! :-D You're a solid friend (and if I ever need a door kicked down or a bodyguard or something, I bet you could do it!).

    I'm very glad to see you around these days. :) It wasn't the same without ya.

    ~Infernal
  • silverwhisper said on Jan 15, 2008....
    gen, i knew you were around, and that makes me glad.

    i don't think i can add anything infernal didn't say. i look forward to seeing you smile and laugh soon, man.

    ed
  • skald said on Jan 15, 2008....
    You you take part in SoulCast and in life in general. I know that this is hard and I am sorry. It will not make it any better for you if I say that you will love again but I think you will. I have been there and it is incredible how things turn out but things will change I promise you. luv  
  • MissMimi said on Jan 15, 2008....
    please listen to skald, Gen, there is a lot of wisdom in her words.  You may not believe it now but things will slowly change, and you will find your new normal.  All my best.
  • evil_twin said on Jan 15, 2008....
    I'm really sorry about your breakup. We never really had a chance to know each other here yet, but I have read some of your blogs. I know you'll get through this. I've been there too and it sucks. But you're picking yourself up and moving forward and that's the best thing you can do. Good luck to you.

    -evil_twin LA
  • queenparanoia said on Jan 15, 2008....
    gena: breaking up is a hard process... letting go is harder... but i know you'll make it.... =) i'm glad youre back in soulcast... =)
  • carterbabe3 said on Jan 15, 2008....
    Gen - Someone once told me that everytime you break up with someone that you love, your love for someone else can only pick up where you left off and that love grows more than you could ever imagine. I hope this make sense and I also hope that it helps! Hang in there! The best kind of revenge is living well, so live well my friend!
  • husbandhater said on Jan 15, 2008....

    (((((((((((((OH My Poor G-Wolf)))))))))))))) I am alone with you feeling your heartache. I remeber feeling what you felt once. Losing love is sooo hard! It      can effect you mentally and physically.  Go out and meet people. Are their any socials where you live? A bingo game on Fridays? A pot luck? A book club? A blog club? I'm not saying to go meet another woman for your heart is too fragile and rebound dating is never a good thing. But get into an activity to take your mind off of Pickle. Meeting others can enrich your life in other ways and fill it.

    Love usually comes when you least suspect it anyway.

  • genalonewolf said on Jan 15, 2008....
    Ah moving on is hard and I have read skalds words and have taken them to heart. HH, I am not sure about the socials around but I don't think I would go to them even if there was one. My neighborhood is quite a bit on the rough side. Ok its real rough. The city buses stopped running this part of town if that tells you anything.!
    I have heard that saying somewhere Carterbabe. Evil twin I have read alot of your stuff and am wonder why I don't comment more. I guess it is my own mistake i intend on fixing, thank you for your concern.
    Queenie, Mimi, always as sweet as ever, please don't either of you change!
    Silver, always a constant rock for which I tend to seek these days, thank you my friend!
    Infernal I am glad I can still make people laugh. It is what I want to get back to in the future. Thanks everyone!! I sure do feel better.
  • Zayda said on Jan 15, 2008....
    First...


    {{{{hugs wolfie fiercely}}}


    Wolfie--Moving on is hard. And all you can do is put one foot in front of the other and keep plugging away. Tell as much as you want or as little as you want. We'll listen.


    Infernal's right, though, you are a solid friend. And I am glad to see you back posting.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Jan 15, 2008....
    I'm going to selfishly be happy that you're back.  For the same reasons that you gave (interesting people) for staying here, I have missed your comments.
     
    I'm really very sorry things didn't work out with the pickle.  I know how much you loved her.  I really don't understand how a woman turns her back on that kind of love.  I hope you don't give up on people, or even women.
     
  • destinydiva said on Jan 15, 2008....
    aaawww gena, newly single life is shit!! :-)  but you have a lot of friends here to help you get through it (hopefully me included..)  
    (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))
    xx

    ps I found your humour in the description very funny!!  :-)
  • destinydiva said on Jan 15, 2008....
    pps and I am certain you wont stay single for long after reading your 'about me ' on my post!! :-) xx
  • Eilan said on Jan 15, 2008....
    I'm glad to see you back, too.

    I was in your shoes a few years ago.  It sucks, but it does get easier.
  • CreativeWoman said on Jan 15, 2008....
    It's good to see you're going to stay around SC, gena.  :-)  I wish you the very best. 

    CW
  • Mamie said on Jan 15, 2008....
    same here, Gen , here if you need an ear...I went thru that exactly once and it made me the strong person that I am today...i know that is no consolation but this will transform you into even more loveable than you thought possible...I have been with my soul mate now for over twenty years...I would not have dated him if I had not been looking ya know?
    keep moving on, baby steps, we are here....mamie
  • crybabylu said on Jan 15, 2008....
    Good to hear from you.
  • cntlvmenuf said on Jan 15, 2008....
    We haven't met yet.....but I do look forward to getting to know you.
    Everything happens for a reason.....in due time it all becomes clear to us. Stay strong....
  • moonriver said on Jan 15, 2008....
    moonriver k'ung fu-tzu say, me totally understand fellow wolf's situation. but first things first. me suggest you cut ponytail hair, and adapt marine cut for now. helps air circulation, allows quicker recovery of broken heart. take it from me... ;-)

  • ShakenToTheCore said on Jan 15, 2008....
    Hi. I hope you're feeling better tonight. I can't fully understand because it wasn't my relationship, but I understand the feelings well. It hurts like a bitch (sorry) but it absolutely will get better. One day you'll have an epiphany and it'll be like you've forgotten that you were even sad. Even though you don't know me, hugs to you!
  • Jenna said on Jan 15, 2008....

     

    Gena,

    ((hugs))

    It just takes time my dear one.....it just takes time. 

    xo

    Jen

  • genalonewolf said on Jan 15, 2008....
    Whoa you guys are gonna make me cry, ahhh hell too late!!!!!!!!
  • Zayda said on Jan 15, 2008....
    Have a tissue, hun.


    Tears are good for the soul, so you just let them out.


    I've got a steady supply of tissues you can have.

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