Ok, you will have to listen closely because I have a cold and I am losing my voice! just an attempt at humor.
Where to start? I guess with the fact that I am in a situation that i don't want to be in. i am with my family and the people that love me and I am completely alone! I never expected to be here and feeling this way. I guess you never see it coming when you think that you are in love. I spent three years giving my heart away to the most perfect being in this world. I loved to the maximum a human could possibly and live. I gave my time, my sweat, my tears and my pain to this relationship. It was ended really with a text message. She didn't think she could be the kind of person I wanted her to be when in reality she was the most perfect thing god could have given me!
Now she is gone and I have nothing and I know that alot of you might be thinking right now that that couldn't be true! Well you would have to be in position to really understand that.
i left some really great people where i lived just to make pickle happy and now I think about it, it was probably to make it easier on her. I am to the point right now where I don't really care. It is the only way I know how to deal with it. She hasn't called me in over a month to see how it is going and I didn't really expect her to.
i don't know what really else to say about it except maybe the smaller details and I doubt most of you really want to hear it. Anyway i am moving on as best as I can humanly possible.
I have been around and have been reading some posts and have actually commented on a few. I plan to pick back up where I left off and get back into the soul cast swing of things. I feel that this place has really helped in some sort of way. I don't think I could have really let this place go that easily. I have so many interests here and many interesting people and friends that I still need to comment to. I guess you are all just stuck with me so please be patient and mindful of my fragile mind and body. another joke if you have ever seen my pics!!!!
Thats it for now. I will be back posting and waiting for you ever truthful comments!



