Tonight is such a sad and strange night.
I have read and commented on some posts--some I may have missed--but there seems to be so much sadness in the works right now.
People have lost family members and others are in fear of losing them. Others are in ill health. Still others are in pain for one reason or another.
I am myself in some pain and I am not dealing with it very well at all. Ok, I am not dealing with it at all....
I got a phone call today telling me that a close relative has lost their battle with cancer. I am not there. It is miles and miles away in distance. They even told me not to worry about sending money for my part in the flowers--that my name would be on the card.
My name is on the card? That is all I can contribute.
And so I go on. I am still scanning around on SC and trying to do as I always do. What else can I do? I don't feel as if I can break down and cry and go to bed. That scares me too much right now. Maybe tomorrow.
I am shamefully having a drink and listening to music....some of which is the SoulCast music of fellow soulcasters.
Forgive me for being lost in the world of loss. But until I get a grip, I will be still listening to your music, and not mine.
