Have you ever been in a place in your life where your damned if you do and damned if you dont?  Well, welcome to my hell.  Everybody says when you fall in love its the best feeling  n the world.  Then when you decide your going to get married you tell everyone that your husbond or wife is your best friend and that you dont know what you would have ever done without them.  Well i agree with that but at the same time you still have another best friend.  They are the one you called when you thought your life was over cause of a nasty break up or divorce.  They are the shoulder you cryed on and the hand you held when you decided to get back out into the real world and try dateing one more time.  They were the first person you called when you met that Mr right and realized that "this one could be the one".  This person is your heart and soul.  They know everything about you and can tell without being told if there is something that is bothering you.  So now you have 2 best friends and would never choose between the two of them even if you had to, right? Well, what do you do if your best friend no longer trust you and decides that a mans love is more important? 

      Well, I am faced with just that problem.  My best friend just started seeing someone and right off i get a bad feeling but i dont sayanything at first.  I am happy that she is happy but at the same time i beg her to take it slow because she has fallen like this before and not to pat myself on the back but when those relationships went south i knew it was comeing and i told her they were no good for her and finaly she seen the light and ended them. Other relationships she ended for her own personal reasons and i supported her then too.  But this one she is refusing to see all the signs that are right in front of her face.  She says that i never did like him and that i was trying to sabatage this from the very begining.  She is the one who told me about different things about him but as smart as she is she wont take a step back and look to see if everything is what it seems.  I want her to be happy I want nothing more for her to find that one man that is going to put her up on a pedastool and treat her like a queen.  But this guy isnt the one and i can fell it deep down in my bones.  Yes I am very protective of her, i cant stand to see her cry and it kills me when she starts to talk about how shes overweight or not preaty.  I think she is perfect in everyway!!  I understand she doesnt want to be lonely anymore, who does.

     Now every since she has gotten with him we dont talk as much because she thinks I dont like him and that I have no reason to feel that way about him because I dont know him but all she knows about him is what he has told her and what his family has told her.  Well normaly that woulld be enought except she has forgotten about a realy good friend of ours and the bad relationship she was in and how his family was doing noting but lieing to her for him.  After 10 years of friendship she is now not speaking to me because i have voiced my feelings about him.  She has told me that i am mean to her and that when i did spend time around him that all I did was attack him, witch is so very untrue!  When her and her other friends would leave the room to take a smoke break because she doesnt smoke in her house I was the one that stayed in the room and talked to him.  I tryed to be nice to him I realy did but now I find out that people who have known me for a verylong time who were also there say i was hard on him.  When we played a game and he constantly kept badgering me about my answers i still kept a smile on my face when all i realy wanted to do was get up and punch him in his know it all face.  every time I tryed to talk to her about this it was always the same thing" you dont know him,  all you know is what i have told you and i havent given you any reason to doubt him.  but she has and now that she did tell me a few of these things she is regreting it.  I have a worped sinse of huemer and yes i can be harsh and relentless when the time calls for it but now she is telling me that I say things that hurt her fellings but wont tell me what.  I know he has put all kids of shit in her mind and he doesnt want me around but even if she does stop talking to me because of him i will never go away and when she finaly sees he isnt what he says he is and she does get rid of him i will still be here for her but i know it is going to kill me that i have to just sit by and let it happen.