Okay, whoo! So, the new year's coming in tonight! Aside from questions about the legitimacy of the current calendar (why is it used if there are more accurate ones?!),I guess I'm a little dazed. I am every new year. I mean, what happened? Freak all if I remember. I moved, I know that, but don't remember doing it. Actually, it was funny: just now I clicked on the link here because it was on my browser's menu-bar. hat was it and why was it there?

Oh. It's a blogging site. Got it. Yeah. That's what I'm doing. Sure, I'm game-- the idea sounds neat. But why is everyone writing about the new year? That's not for another three or four days... Oh. The date on all of the entrees say that it's tonight.

Okay.

So, I've missed another couple of days. I guess that should be our next rant, huh? Or a miniature part of this one. I guess it's not as up-beat as the rest, but it's fitting of the new year: time loss.

Losing time is what happens when someone isn't 'out' for a while. It can happen for a few minutes, hours, days, week, or even years. The best way to describe it is that you feel like you're half-asleep. Maybe the day before was hectic-- who knows, but you've just woken up. You don't know what time of day it is; maybe it's night. Another thing that's not important. You're drained, most probably have a headache, and everything you know feels distant to you.

Maybe you get up. Walk down the hall. On the way, you might glance down at your watch-- the one that displays the date as well as the time. Three days have passed. Even upon prompting, you don't remember any of it.

Nonetheless, you have to be careful to act like you do.

The pertinence of this should be obvious: appreciate time. Life isn't forever. Each tick of the clock may bring you closer to the end, but they also allow you memories. Which allows you life.

If we truly are our perceptions, then I'm grateful to remember any of this year, even if I don't always like what I see. Of course, these words will be forgotten the instant I go away, but maybe something of them will remain? Through all of the badness, it's hard to recall-- I'm sure. But I think I'm grateful for it, because now I'm not afraid.

So, here's to the new year and all that entails: the good or the bad, let life come.

Happy new year.