Rant rant rant...

So why is it after all the promises before moving away of still hanging out, still staying in contact, visiting that no one is?  Even though I know they are in state and even though I have called 2-3 times...

I spent my whole evening waiting for a phone call, so I could hang out with one of my closest friends.  "We'll hang out after dinner."  Well I finally got a text message at 10:30 p.m.....a bit late don't you think?  It must seem like I have no life and I can just wait at home forever for this person to finally decide to contact me.  Actually, I could've been out this evening having fun with my boyfriend at a post christmas party...I could've made plans, so I wouldn't end up feeling like this.  But then I think "well, what if I make plans, and then that person finally ends up coming through, do I ditch my current company or do I say oh well tough shit?"  Then I look like the shmuck to someone...either way. 

I just fucking hate when people blow me off.

Example # 2:

Best friend in the world moves to Georgia with his roommate.  Says "don't worry, i'll call and I'll write and I'll come back during thanksgiving and Christmas."  

Doesn't come back for Thanksgiving...

Comes back for Christmas but does not contact me.  I contact him 2-3 times, leave messages, and still not a single word.  

What kind of an asshole does that?  Why promise something, get someone really excited, make them look forward to seeing you, and then not make any contact?

It  makes me feel small, and unimportant, insignificant,  to people who are supposed to be my closest and dearest friends.  When your someone who doesn't have a lot of friends, and then even your closest friends start blowing you off it can't make you feel very good. Actually, it makes you feel stupid and annoying and unimportant.  It makes you feel like their must be something wrong with you if even your best friends don't want to bother with you.  

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