Any of you who have been following my blog of late, may have noticed some changes I've been going through. I have been working very hard at being more open, more considerate, more outgoing. I have been striving to make new friends, and better my relationships with the friends that I already have. And I've been making great strides in that area.
UNTIL
Last weekend I caught a virus. Nothing special about it, just your regular old run of the mill kick your ass put you in bed for three days virus, and it sat nicely in my chest for four days. Then on Tuesday night, it decided to migrate up to my head. So I've spent the last two days with a head full of stuffing and sinuses on fire.
Now, what does this have to do with the price of eggs in Aunt Hattie's cow?
Well, I'll tell you. For one thing, as most of you know, when a person has a virus, it causes them to be depressed. When it's a head cold, the conversation engine shuts down, and thinking quickly on your feet, being cheerful, and being spontaneous is not possible.
So.
Today was the Christmas open house for my office. All the other offices of all 9 floors of my building were invited. There were probably 300 people moving their way through my office in a two hour period, about a third of them women. Many of the people were of management level. So there I was, this totally new, fun, interesting person, amongst all of these people, and I had such a headache I could barely think! What a perfect opportunity it was for me to make new friends, meet new people, and increase my network, and I couldn't even come up with enough conversation to say my name. My mood was so glum because of my illness, that I didn't even stay in the main room. I only talked to a few people that I already knew, and most of the time I hung out in the cubicle of one of my work friends, talking to her about movies and such.
I am so pissed I could SCREAM! The best opportunity I've had to try out my new, improved social skills, and they're totally blunted by a damn VIRUS!!!!! WHY???? WHY??? WHY?????
I can only hope this virus goes away very soon, because I remember being like this at parties before, but the difference is, this time, i DIDN'T LIKE IT!!!!!
