just got a call from my lawyer, the judge is making his ruling...in court tomorrow....at 2pm and me and my family have to be there.
i know i have nothing to be worried about....but i'm worrying anyway.
i feel sick to my stomach.......
i want them back sooooo badly!!
i can't wait to wrap them up in hugs.
but i'm worried too.
are they going to be mad at me? was life really good there? did they finally make a strong connection to their dad?
that they were sent there in the first place is such a tragedy,
eldest likes the school she's in.
it hurts to know that she likes school and now she has to switch again.
change is really hard for her. and of the three of them she's the most connected to her dad.
they are SOOO much alike.
which worries me immensely.
she needs to be socialized.
and with his hermit like tendencies that will never happen.
anyway....so basically i'm all nerves.
most likely i will be flying out to denver with my mother.....picking them up....not sure where, at their grandparents home...or at the airport.
but who knows....i mean.....maybe the judge will rule and they have to stay there....and can only come home for christmas......
or maybe they get to stay there through christmas and i get them after christmas.
i'm just so nervous.



