Today won't go down in my personal history as one of my more productive days. It felt like the only way to get myself to do anything was to force it out of me. I cannot solve the web page dilemma, as in, as much as I want one do I really need one? Despite my best intentions, I've never made more money having a website than I do without one. And the monthly fees just keep bleeding me dry. Then I tell myself I'm just not doing it right, and then I can't seem to get off top dead center. So I set a timer for 30 minutes and worked on my knitting, all the while asking myself, "Do I really need a knitted dress in CA or would time be better spent looking for a job." Of course if I couldn't even get motivated to knit, I sure as heck didn't have the motivation to actually leave the apartment. After the timer went off I set it for another 30 minutes and worked on my loom beading. I'm making a purple headpiece (go figure). But I was too restless to do a good job on that, so after 30 minutes I gave it a rest. A few hours later I tried again...I did four rows, made mistakes on 2 of them and had to undo and redo 2 rows. I figured that was counterproductive, so no more beadwork when I'm tired. I surfed around the Etsy chatroom for a while, until I felt guilty that I shouldn't be wasting time chatting, when I could be finishing crafts for my etsy store. I met another costumer in Pasedena and we had a chat about pirate frock coats. I told her I was making one, and she had about 9 on her web page she'd already sold. She wants to see a photo of mine when I'm done. Then I realized I didn't even know where I had put the frock coat I was working on. I knew I had the fabric, but did I even cut it out yet? I don't even know where it's buried. I get so frustrated when other people have their act together and I don't. How am I going to finish a project I can't even find? So tonight I told myself...yah know, maybe I just need a day off. To stop trying so hard to not get anywhere.