Yes, this is my hideout, a place for me to seek a rest when I am tired.  Headache and heartache.  How can I not be stressful in this kind of environment?  Prices of grocery going up, transportation also going up.  Everything money.  Need to feed the children, need to feed myself, need to pay our 'genetically unrelated Father', the richest Man in 'Babylon'.  It is so ridiculous.  Just because ours is a small country, just like a teacher in a classroom.  Every step you move, every thing you do, all is under surveilance and control.  There is no way you can win.  Just like internet Money-Making bloggers.  Liu Bang win ultimately.  You just have to comply if you want to continue existence here.

I fell.  I had a fall.  I want to rest.  Can I ? 

When I fall down, I examine myself,  I reflect on myself.  I had to seek new direction.  I had  adapt to the sudden changes to my life.