From all of the changes that have happened in my life recently, it seems like I am at a standstill now. Like I am cleaning up loose ends before the next set of events sets upon me. And they will come. I just don't know what they are yet.
I settled my court case today, without seeing a judge. The person decided to cut the amount they were seeking by more than half, and even though I knew I could win the case and pay nothing, I decided it was better to have that person's good will than to have a few more dollars. To me, it is better to give up paper than give up a friend. And he is now my friend. It was a situation I have been aprehensive about for months, I did not want to face it, I just wanted to fast forward to five minutes after it was done. But I faced it anyway, without fear and apprehension, and found that I was totally in control of the outcome. I am satisfied.
I decided to change my degree program last weekend, and have been working for three days to be placed in the one of my choice. The program I started last september, I found, was just not for me. I looked ten years down the road at what I would be doing if i pursued that path, and I saw that I again would be doing a job that I did not like, with far more stress than I am comfortable with. Again, I would have traded money for happiness, and it just was not worth the price. Now I've chosen a program that fits with where I want to be in those ten years, I will be much more interested in the classes, and will do much better in school. again, I am satisfied.
One of my co-workers who has a perminant position, instead of a temporary one like me, accepted a job with another company and recomended me to his superior today to take over his job. The things he is working on are of great interest to me, and right in line with my talents and abilities. It will mean a raise, and paid holidays, which I do not have now, and a few other benefits, along with the ability to bid on other positions within that company. It is a multinational IT contractor, so if I stay there and do well in this position, I can choose where I want to go. With this, I am also satisfied.
There is only one loose end left to tie up. I need to find another apartment with more than one bedroom. This shouldn't be too hard as there are many apartment complexes all around the city. I could even stay in the complex I am in now. I'll decide that probably by the weekend.
My life seems again to be settled, and I'm beginning to get bored with it. Perhaps that's just the effects of so much change to deal with over such a long time, and then having it all settled.
But I know, it won't be very long before the 'fates' decide it's time for me to stretch myself once again, to test my mastery of my fear, my intelligence, my wisdom, my resolve. To produce with the abilities I have gained from the trials I overcame. To better my life and the lives of those around me by spending those gems that they helped me to dig up, and polish, and put on display for all the world to see.
I can't wait! :-)
Is anyone out there feeling ready for the next challenge, nearing boredom waiting for it to show itself?
