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notmyintention
posted on Oct 09, 2008
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life is so fucking deceiving. i was happy for a few days. i met someone. i thought it mattered. i thought i mattered. and then poof...gone with the wind. what gets me the most is how fucking inconsiderate people are. they say "i'll call you back in 20 mi... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Oct 09, 2008
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life is so fucking deceiving. i was happy for a few days. i met someone. i thought it mattered. i thought i mattered. and then poof...gone with the wind. what gets me the most is how fucking inconsiderate people are. they say "i'll call you back in 20 mi... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Oct 09, 2008
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life is so fucking deceiving. i was happy for a few days. i met someone. i thought it mattered. i thought i mattered. and then poof...gone with the wind. what gets me the most is how fucking inconsiderate people are. they say "i'll call you back in 20 mi... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Sep 01, 2008
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i finally found someone to talk to. after calling a few and being told they couldn't see me for like a month, i was referred to someone who could see pretty quickly...within a week. i have gone twice and i feel ok, but talking about myself brings up guil... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Sep 01, 2008
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i was pondering my existence yesterday and the thought came to mind that i can't remember how i felt in my last relationship. i spent 2 1/2 yrs with someone, and now...a year after the break up; i can't remember how i felt then. is that odd? is that norm... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Aug 04, 2008
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this precisely....this sucks....don't feel any better. feel worse. feel exposed. feel worthless. feel unappreciated. feel tired. feel lonely. feel hatred. feel annoyance. feel too much to be fair.... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Aug 03, 2008
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since i stayed home this weekend and didn't get myself into trouble...i don't have much to say. i wish i could put a string together of days like today. i am "ok" for the time being. i haven't done anything stupid today. i ate well. i'm sober. i went to... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 30, 2008
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Fiddlesticks. my mom used to say that when we were kids. Fiddlesticks? where the hell did she get that from? but now as an adult, i find myself aware of elderly people and children and christians, so i too say fiddlesticks. better than F@#k or the like i... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 30, 2008
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well i have been trying to get an appt with a therapist to no avail. i found a really nice one who was on my insurance and close to my house and when you call the office # it's her cell phone and SHE calls you back. i was thinking "wow that's different..... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 28, 2008
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people have commented about whether or not i have hobbies. for the past few years i have done countless research about hobbies, i have gone to hobby lobby and michael's a dozen times and just walked around waiting for something to catch my eye as a poten... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 28, 2008
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it's funny to me how people don't see you for what you are. or they don't want to see. if people let their guard down and actually looked at me and saw depression, pain, loss, and instability, then they would be forced to realize that they are living in... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 27, 2008
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i am reading blogs and i am feeling devastated and a little better. devastated because there are so many people with so many problems and with way worse situations to deal with than me...my heart is breaking. and a little better because for the first tim... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 27, 2008
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i decided last night that i should get another (yes another) therapist. it would probably be the best thing to do since i started cutting, i cry everyday, and i feel that life is over for me. my last therapist told me that my depression and anger issues... read entire post
notmyintention
posted on Jul 27, 2008
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waking up alone sucks. everyday, same thing. wake up, disgusted at the lack of anything meaningful to do that day, or anyday. mope around, decide to go to the grocery store, maybe, just maybe i'll get to have a conversation with anyone. hell i'll take "h... read entire post