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Onlyonce
posted on Sep 11, 2007
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I cant figure a name for them just yet, so I am calling him (her?) Fred for the moment. He walks beside, and slightly behind me. He's not of a form I'm used to, but I can't see him well enough to make it out. He's been with me for some time now, but I've... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Aug 01, 2007
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But I cant tell you. You dont even want to hear it. I dont know why i love you, or why when I am away from you i feel sick to my stomach and paniced. Its probably becuase I am just so weak. Weak as a person, weak in character, and frightened to death of... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 31, 2007
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i dont even want help... i just want out. I wish i could just go away for awhile... just close the doors and windows, shut the blinds, crawl under my covers and disapear. there is just no point. I dont want to do anything, i have no goals, no aspirations... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 25, 2007
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Because i dont feel angry... I just feel dead. And trapped. I just dont want to play this game anymore. I feel as if i wish that i could just erase my existance from the start, and and just let some aborted fetus take my place or something. I know I cant... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 18, 2007
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the shit has hit the fan. Why isnt there an easy answer? I really just more than dislike all this... there has to be an answer to it all. Besides door A or B. Or the lottery. That seems very unlikey...
Damn it all, i hate that not being all i... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 18, 2007
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I need someone to either vindicate me or tell me I'm totally off, because I can't get this out of my head!!!So, there is this variety theater production that I take part in, and it happens 3 to 4 times a year, and in the spirit of variety, all part... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 16, 2007
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So, i am on the generic version of weburtin, and today is day three. And I feel SO strange. I dont know if its from not sleeping last night, or if not sleeping last night was caused by it or what... but i feel like my head is in a box or something. I'm d... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 12, 2007
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Trust is peace. Trust is being able to give you a chainsaw, a jar of ants and a whore, and being able to lay naked on the floor beside you without as much as wrinkling my forehead in worry.
my dream...
you'd lay next to m... read entire post
Onlyonce
posted on Jul 12, 2007
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I cant do paper journals. I cant write fast enough, and I cant keep track of them.... read entire post